HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SEP!


I'll always remember the advices you gave last sem. You directed me back on track and I appreciate it alot. Thanks. (: Happy 19th to you.



Love,
adel.

Your voice is heaven,but it hurts.
Your words are memories,but they burn.


Amei is my new-found love. Haha. (: Actually like her songs without realising they're all sung by her. How ironic. Alright. Met Mins at 11+pm yesterday night for study session over at SKCC. Practically laughed thruout the whole session and I was suppose to study my OB. End up looking at her and battled with some irritatin mozzie. Psssssst. Walked to and fro from SKCC and Compass. Bought chips and all from 7-11 as if we're going for a war. LOL. Had lotsa fun with her. Love, Sis!

By the way, my "today" refers to 27th Oct alright. And "yesterday's" for 26th Oct.

Granny's 49th Day death anni today. Slept at 7am yesterday and gotta get up by 10 today. Its okay. Lotsa food over at Gramp's place. Prayed and all. Came home, knocked out immediately and was left on my own while bro went over to TaiKeng to look for mum. Oh, she's coming back, FINALLY.

Gonna perm my hair next saturday and I AM looking forward to it. (: Finally amde up my mind after, say, 3 mths? HAHA. Yes, I'm gonna do it.

Received email from Tatyi-means good news. Will be participating in the upcoming event, TPRawks on 14-16 Nov, as Pack Leader. Yay, means LOA. (: And fun plus more fun. Went down to the lounge on Fri to meet Evonne for lunch and found out that there's actually 1000 over applicants for OTC. -_- Almost half of them are from HTM. Esp, year ones. Whoohooo. Interesting.

Sis will be back in 2 week's time. HAHA. She's having a fever and flu over there. Rashes came out the day before and she was complaining to me over MSN luh. I cant do anything! LOL.


Its freaking 5am now and I'm still here. Just finish watching Harry Potter. Never seems to grow tired of it. Haha. Cy's dressing up as Harry Potter on Halloween luh. TSK. He bought those robes and wands online months ago and just got them this week. And trying to act mysterious, refuse to let me see. NEVER MIND. I'll see how silly he looks on Halloween. ZOUKKKKKK, I miss.


Time to go! Cuzzie's birthday BBQ over at TaiKeng tmr. FOODD =D By right Ronjo's birthday's on 29th. But he insist that we celebrate for him on 28th -_- Spoilt brat.




Heart no longer pound fast in your presence.
Face no longer blush whenever you look my way.
Anxiety no longer exist like before.
Eyes no longer see you as my favourite.
Love no longer find its way to your name.
I have thus, forgotten how much you use to mean to me.
And will be spending no effort reminiscing it.


You'll be just a passer-by from now.
Just a friend I'll greet with a smile. (:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY PRIS! (:


Haha, I'm not late to blog this before 12am. (: Just came back from val's. Everyone's really tired. But I'm sure we enjoyed ourselves. haha.

Got the bouquet from kovan in the morning and met Val on the train. Down to Somerset to meet Alvin, supposedly, and the birthday girl.

Surprise #1 : Pk was told that Alvin couldnt make it. But he's actually already at Cine. (X

Surprise #2 : Pk was again told that celebration this year would be a simple one and it'll be done over at Kbox. (: quite surprising cos its unlikely we'll make it so simple.

Surprise #3 : Dinny, Sep, BJ, Nibbs and all were already at Val's preparing everything while we stall time. LOL. Pk got conned to Val's place and was told that Val's mummy has something to pass to her. -_- Then suggested to settle their dinner on prawn mee. HAHA. Pk was tricked to Val's place and all jumped out of nowhere.


EH EH, I really understand how detectives do their job when tailing the suspects la. In this case Pk was the suspect I had to follow. LOL. Literally hide after every lamp post, wadever you call them la. Pk almost caught me. Miscommunication between Val and I. LOL.

Alright, I will continue some other day. I'm tired already and it doesnt make things better when we'll be having 3 hours of commskills tmr MORNING. ):

So, this is all for today.


AGAIN, HAPPY B'DAY PK! =D

First day of a new semester.


It was alright I guess. Will just have to get used to the screwed up timetable of mine. I can be independent I realised. (: Anyway, HTMarketing was kinda nice. Lecturer was literally cracking up lame jokes which none of us laughed. -_- But he's trying, hard. HAHA.

Micro lec was next. Joined the other HTM Year 1 group for micro. I almost fell alseep. Chiwen went in with me cos she will only have commskills at 12. haha. Really nice of her. (: I couldnt take it halfway thru the lecture and decided to zao with Chiwen during the break. LOL.

Woke up at 4am yesterday and couldnt get into sleep again. Thus, my tiredness today. I'm gonna sleep now. Goodnight all! (:






You will be just a passer-by.

Independence.


Ah well, practically slacked at home for the whole of today. Didnt know I was so tired. Gotta get bro's pants changed soon but I'm dreading it. But leaving it there on my table doesnt make it shrink to a size smaller. ):

One more week before school starts. No feelings. Haha. It'll be just school. Anyway, just hope that time table wont be so screwed up that I cannot take my driving practicals. Wanna get it by the start of next year. Should be achievable. hur.

Chomps with peeps tmr. But I dont wanna eat! ): I cannot put on any more weight man. I'm starting to have the urge to do nothing and just nua already. haha.



Goodnight!






You can't stay anymore.
You have to go.

The reason I smile.


Haven't been updating I know. Been feeling tired and been home late recently. Went down to Zouk yesterday with Jer and Co. Enjoyed poking fun at people at Zouk itself. LOL. Phuture was nicer. Though the crowd but the music's of course better. Mambo this wednesday. Anyone wanna come along? Will be going with Weiming and friends. (:

Met Mins, Kwai, Cher and all at Plaza Sing. for movies. Watched 881 and it upsets me alot. Even till now. Reminded me of my Granny and Mum. Held back my tears cos there were people laughing non-stop beside me and I really dont know how I should react. Nvm.

A game of Pool next and headed down to Marina Square. Had our dinner at Billy Bombers and I almost fell asleep. Got home at ard 4am and had to wake up at 10am. Yawns. As usual Esplanade after dinner. Went up to the rooftop and I was so reluctant. But didnt tell anyone accept Kwai. But we both could do nothing. Unhappy memories there and I dont wanna be reminded of.

Guess overall was okay. But i'm tired. LOL.




The picture of you in my mind slowly fade away.
I could no longer feel the love.
But I am not sure. Who are you now.
I needa get my thoughts sorted out.
I am sure, you'll be gone.







You do have a place in my heart

What's there to not love about you?


Adel is so tired today. Its been going on for days. How. ): Got bro his Samsung U700 today. Of course he paid for it. I dont understand guys man. What's so nice about THAT kinda phone that they're SO attracted to it. ha. Maybe its just me.

Another new phone for me. I cant say its old when my bro only used it for 2 months? or 3. And half the time he didnt bother bout his phone. Its kinda new. And I have endless phone lines and phones. I can set up a stall.



I feel like a fool. And I'm the one to blame.
I feel like a clown. I know things will not stay the same.
I find myself doing everything I can get my hands on to.
And when all I do, I do for you.





I lost, yet again.

The drop from cloud nine, sucks.



Went ICA with mum to renew her passport. Bugis-ed after that. I am so tired today. Extremely listless. I seriously need to sleep at the hour where everyone's suppose to be sleeping. My complextion's getting bad cos of it. ):

I just cant get to sleep ystd night I dont know why. With so many things running thru my head, I thought it was gonna explode. So many explanations I owe myself, so many questions I have to give answers to. But no, I dont have them all.

After reading Pris' blog, it struck me back to reality. And that is, 2 more weeks to the beginning of a new semester. I don't know how I should feel. It just feels so, numb? A part of me look forward to a new start but another just refuse to accept the fact. Its as good as I am happy but I am unhappy. haha.

Wed's for sentosa with Von and Carmen. If weather permits, that is. Or else I wont mind staying at home and rot. I need to enjoy the priviledge to relax and rot my ass off at home.. God knows what kinda life I will be facing when school starts. -_-" Probably another round of tests, projects and exams.


Sometimes I wish I'm a psychic. Then I can read your mind and know your needs and you can have a happy, near-perfect life. Aint it good? I know you will not want that though. Sometimes simplicity can be a blessing. I have to learn to agree.








If that's not love, then what is it?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELLY!! ((:


It's Bro's birthday today. Going TaiKeng Villa for BBQ later on. Wanna stay there for good? I'm still used to Hougang though. Aiyah, I dont know luh. Slept at 10am in the morning and I just woke up. LOL. Addicted to Dave Pelzer man.

Did I mentioned that I almost died yesterday? Haha. Thanks huh Pris. FAINTSSS.


Will update again ltr.

Fairytales don't come true.

Oh my, been feeling lethargic for the whole of today. ): Went all the way to AMK to see my family doctor. No idea what the doctor blabbered. Just wanna get my medicine and go home. Didnt wanna flare at anyone or spoil anybody's mood, stayed in the room. Thank god I have Dave Pelzer for company. He made things a little better.

57 more minutes to my bro, Celly's birthday. Alright, he's Cedric, not Celly. He'll kill me if he sees this. Hmmm, can't celebrate his birthday this year. Grandma's 100th day not over. Will be missing 3 years' CNY too but its perfectly fine.

I'm tired already. Goodnight all!







I should be going.

If only time would stop.

Got my bro's birthday gift already. =D Let me recall how much time I took to choose. Oh, someone went in and out of the changing room just to help me decide which is nice. haha. THANK YOU ah. But I did you a favor back right. You cant say I've got bad taste, you know you know. (: and I dont think I took a longer time than you normally do. ha.

Spent half the day at Paragon. Jer met me there. Went to look for her bf at Fish&Co. Suppose to go shopping with us but he chose to work overtime. And of course, Jer was fuming mad. Bf didnt work overtime in the end but spent the day "talking" to Jer. Of course I made myself scarce. Hmmm, I've got better things to do. But I guess staff from Adidas and Nike should be wondering how come this girl cannot decide what she want. LOL. I dont know what went into me today. I cannot decide on anything, everything. Took my own sweet time to choose. GIRLS ARE NOT FICKLE-MINDED okay. At least I'm not. (:

Fashion Show at Paragon by Bvlgari. Rather boring. Met Jer back at the basement after getting my stuff. It was my first time helping someone shop man. It doesnt help if that person's fussy yet claim he's sui bian you know. haha. Jer was wondering what took me so long. Met mum and aunt then they continue walking. Legs were aching like hell so kept complaining and insist that we go home. Didnt get to see Jan today. Fareast very far. Haha. Will make it up to her. (:

Guess what I'm dong now. -_-" Helping mum pluck her white hair. In return she'll split bro's birthday gift with me. Heh. I thought I'll go blind eh. Okay. I'm tired now. Think I'll be able to adjust back my normal sleeping timing. HAHA.

Ooooh, I'm so proud of myself today.






When those tears and pain were made worthwhile.
You gave a meaning to love (:

我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹

你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味

只想爱你
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定

只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避

sorry我还是不会放弃爱你
sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你


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Nice song right?
Happened to play in my lappy. (:

If all that was just a dream, I wish to be asleep forever.



Me and my nonsensical stuff in the morning of the day before made me feel so embarrassed. LOL. Long and complicating sentence there. Anyway, back from Tai Keng Villa to pack my stuff and I realised that I have lotsa rubbish. Dont know why I keep them. Maybe I was a garang-guni man in my previous life. LOL. Throw throw throw. Everything. Clothes that I didnt wear for weeks chances are, I wont touch them anymore. Ohhh, I found out many secrets I kept to myself of which I forgot all about. HAHA. Interesting. And yes, I'm one who selectively keep memories. I have a filter machine in my brain which filters out unhappy memories and keep those I consider "good" haha. Anyway, not important.

For my entire 18 yrs living in this world, I've never learnt to treasure those around me. I took everything for granted. In my mind I'd always tell myself things are suppose to be there and people are obliged to help me, do this and that for me. I may seem to be a sensible child who doesnt throw tantrums or whine for weeks till she get what she wants but I did not understand the true meaning of "cherish". For all of my past 17 years I thought I had my future shaped nicely and a path set up perfectly for me. All I have to do is to follow what everybody else are doing and you know, I didnt think I have to be different to get what i want. I knew what i want, I've had my goals and dreams written nicely. But little did I know that goals are not goals if you dont do smth to it. Writing them down on a piece of paper or putting them at the back of your head waiting for fairy godmother to fulfil them for you will not work out. Things dont work this way.

I seem to have not learnt from many mistakes I commit in the past. After I stand up on my feet from a fall I will forget what made me fell so hard. This is why I say i dont treasure. Advising people is one thing, applying them into my own real life situation is another. hoho. See, for the whole of my 17 years of living this is what has been going on. And no, I'm not gonna let it continue.



Alright, thoughts aside. Might be going out in the noon then Penny Black at night. Go there and get paid. Why not. LOL. Free flow of drinks as well. People come visit me yeah? Penny Black @ Boat Quay. hoho.

When is my sis coming back? BOO. She called at noon but I was sleeping. Talking bout that I think I seriously need to adjust my sleeping habit. Following American timing- awake when others in deep sleep and sleep when others are active's not gonna do me any good. Hmmm, I'm tired now. Nothing much to blog also. Yupp!





After so long, I no longer know what I want.

There'll never be another you.


So many things went thru my mind today. Everything under the sun. Perhaps what my friends told me was right. But it has never occured to me that by not acknowledging those comments would bring about dire consequences. I know who to listen to and really meant well. (: I don't wanna judge anyone, cos I'm really happy with the friends I have in my life.

Never once regretted choosing polytechnic. Not at all. You people can live your live the way you guys want and leave mine alone yeah? The used-to-bes can only be kept in memory. My apologies for avoiding you girls from the start of this year. But you have to understand what was going on and how exactly I was feeling. No, not only did I not get understood, false accusations started to form. And I was kept in the dark. All I can do now is to admit that its my fault for not making things clear from the start and went on with the new phase of my life. I failed to look back and see what I've left behind. Again, my apologies. But I'm really tired of all these. I knew what's best for myself. Since you claim that I no longer understand the life of you people, I reckon I will not either in future. If noone's willing to compromise, then I guess we'll just leave things as it is. Let time prove everything.


Enough of that. Someone save me from online shopping and spend and spend like I have endless flow of cash in my bank account. My intentions of getting my brother a birthday gift resulted in getting so many things for myself and none for bro. You cant blame me for that man. Those I saw in town and Bugis were not of my likings. Err, I dont know how much i spent to date. Heh. Will get a top for bro this fri. Finally I can find a place that sells red striped formal top. Is it at Paragon? haha.

Was planning to get it myself, den drop by Fareast to visit Jan at her shop. But she wont be working on on Friday. ): BUT, she can join me for shopping. Haha. Just nice as I was talking to her online. We'll confirm on Thurs then. Cos I have to see doc at I dont know what time and her boss might change his mind bout Jan's work schedule. lalala.




A little wish of mine, is to feel your presence when I wake up in the day and go to bed at night.






LABELS: My everything, may be little, but it was my all.

Halloween Parties!!

Haha, alright babes. Time for a good laugh. I'm sure they got me rolling on the floor. Just some costumes you can consider getting for halloween parties. Sure you'll be OUTstanding. haha! I'll show you my favourite first. LOL.

Can you spot my favorite? HAHA! Sick.

Sick Shit.

Did you think it was real? I did. haha!

This chio ah pek turns me on man.
I didnt know fairies can be so pretty.

Doesnt the key and lock couple costume looks wrong?

See, this goes to show that the era of dressing up as nurses, sadakos, devils, poilcemen, pumpkins are way outdated. Try something new. LOL.

HAHA, okay luh, go to http://www.halloweenexpress.com/ and see for yourself.

They didnt pay me for an advertorial. Its just funny and they're not expensive!

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All's well again.


The mistake actually did me a great favour. If not for that I'll still be stuck here not knowing anything and cont' being a nuisance. Ashamed of that though. Nothing to be proud of. I just hope this doesnt repeat anymore and everything starts anew. (:

Thats all! The impact created really gave me a heart attack and I almost died. I gotta say I have really nice friends and its worth salvaging. Give me some more time and I'll be good again yeah?
I'm sorry to those to misunderstood as well. At least I know I have really great friends around who are concern. Thanks lot yeah?

As for the 7 of you, I think its best if we all meet up and talk. I see backstabbings in process and it irks me. A blames B and B blames C. So how? Everything continues to H since there's 8 of us ( including me)? So all these hypocrisy will cont if i didnt declare it publicly in my blog? You think, I thought and and all assume. Dont suggest msn convo pls, it's obvious that it doesnt work. I can wash my hands off everything actually. What's the point when nobody admits? Yeah, like what my friend said, its really primary sch thing and I agree. Perhaps i shld really just forget bout it. How many years of friendship? I guess its doesnt matter to any of you. Maybe I shld really believe that those days are already the past and people change. Maybe I am right to let go.



LABELS: Friends that forgive. Friends that forget.