Killing me slowly.

Not a single word from you. Nothing. I thought this will be the best way out. For everything. Little did I know I'm just torturing myself. Why did I do this to myself? Now I know, Ihave to face the music and solve everything outright. I'm too used to running away and always expect people to give in to me and let things go my way. A year ago it was like this, now its again the same thing. But this time round I'm not sure if that someone will give in to me. But I'm quite sure that i no longer wanna run away. I hope I really mean it. Hopefully I'll be able to take it once I decide that we really need to talk. Anytime you want boy. At least I will not have any regrets.

All the used-tos. All the might-have-beens. The things and people I gave up for you. No regrets still. Even till this point. Silly as I may be, this is who I am. Sometimes I hate myself for being that way. But sometimes, I thought it is me that made everyone around me happy. But this time round. I became a burden and additional stress to you. Disappointed. Jaded. Exhausted. I feel so helpless now yet I dont want anybody's help. I wanna be on my own. But can I manage? Can I take everything? I feel so so weak. Maybe its better if i allow myself to be weak, maybe it'll be better if I allow myself to lean on someone.

Emptiness. Pure emptiness. This sucks. I wanna screeeeeeeeeaaaaaammmm. out loud.

I must say that night over at pk's place's really one word, AWESOME. Everyone was there for everyone and I felt the love everyone had for everyone. (: Tensions got high and volcanoes almost erupted, but still, somehow or another everything calmed itself down and laughters filled the living room. Jokes and more jokes,food and more food. I was the chef of the night. So proud to be one. I learnt not to laugh so hard. Tears fell off my cheeks unknowingly in the midst of me laughing so hard at nothing. Val was surprised at how easily tickled i was recently but got no answers from me. I knew the reason behind it but I chose to be ignorant. Bleeding and heavy downpour inside. The pain behind those smiles and laughters. I'm gonna get it over.


Talking to friends online definitely cheered me up alot. People like Val, Sep, Pris, DINNY MAN ( haha! ), Mins, Vivi.. etc. Thanks lot. I'll be strong. I know whatever happens, you guys will still be around. (:


You know all I need is a smile from you and I'll be good. But that's gonna be fatal.



LABELS: I love you, I really do.

Can you hear me? i'm calling you.


Empty. Numb. Lost. I can't feel anything. I dont know what's on your mind. I dont know what you're thinking. Why are you doing all these? I wanna know. Everything you do affects me alot alot. I hate myself for letting you do this to me. I wish I could just lay dead on the ground, and pretend there's nothing outside for me to care. But I know I cant do that. I'm too cowardly to do that. Yes, laugh.

I was told to give you time and space. But you're contradicting it.
Tell me what do i do? When you know you're my weakest point.

I hope I wont see you today, yet my heart's calling your name. wtf. I'm screwed.

F.O all of you girls. Just FUCK OFF. Don't test our patience. I'm telling you this, we're capable of anything you girls can think of. We'll be nice if you are to us. Don't blame us if you choose to see the nasty side of us. that will not be very nice. Try us if you want. Just dont regret. We'll not retaliate openly. We'll do it slowly. Evil as it may seem to be, but you girls chose it. Don't blame us. Be wise, who doesnt want peace?


I am nice. But don't push me off my limits.





LABELS: How much further I can go. I dont know.

I feel my heart bleeding. I don't wanna walk away.

Went TM after proj meeting. Val and I had the urge to pierce our ears. Got it straight and swift. Numb. I don't wanna resort to this. I was against piercings all along. Didnt want Val or Pris to get their piercings. Now I hope its because I feel that ear piercing's better den body piercing. I'll never wanna torture myself this way.

I feel so helpless.

You tore my heart into million pieces.
The sight of you murdered me. I smiled, I laughed, I pretended you were not there. I was tearing inside, I was struggling inside, I wanted to look at you so much.

Not even a glance. I didnt dare to look into those eyes, I didnt wanna go anywhere close to you. I didnt have a choice. I thought only this way that I can at least not feel so painful. But I was wrong. The moment you left, I crashed. I dropped dead. I hate myself for being so dependent, I hate myself for being so weak. Just before i could type this sentence, you started a conversation with me. I could feel myself falling flat on the ground. I wish I could tell you- boy, you're like the world to me.

The deafening silence's killing me. I'd rather be dead, dont torture me slowly. I don't know how much I can take anymore. I dont know how much more I can go. Bringing me up and let go from there is the last thing that'll make me feel better. I didnt know I could love someone so much. So much that I just wanna cry out loud.



Let me stay by your side, please.



LABELS: I hear myself calling your name.

I've got my pride I will not cry. but its making me weak.

Strong as I may, you pulled down those walls I built. Torn inside, it will heal. But there'll always be a scar left behind. Reminding me of you. I fell in too deep. No regrets still.

I can be your superwoman, if only you let me.

I find myself looking at you though I know I shouldnt. The anger I felt when I thought you did all that on purpose. Things have changed, but you promised to find it back. I'll give you all the space and time you need, the only request that you'll let me wait. Tell me what to do when letting go hurts more then holding on?

What situation can be suckier then knowing that you did more harm than good to the one you love. being oh-so naive about every single thing. being ignorant about how he felt. Sorry, I wasnt understanding enough. I thought I could be there when you need help most. I thought I was there to ensure that you're in pink of health. I thought my love for you will make you a happier person. Only to know that I was wrong. You didnt need me. I was more of a hindrance than help. Pain. Heavy downpour inside. I wish I didnt have to live, at all.

Maybe someone can tell me what will hit me real hard, so hard, so painful that I'll just let go. My tolerance level's getting higher. I am like that, once I set myself on that some thing or on a particular person, I will not let go easily till i feel that I've tried my best and my best is never-ending.

I'm killing myself slowly.

If asked if I'm able to turn back time, will he still be the one I choose to love. Yes, he will be.

Just wanna fall into deep sleep and never wake up. Cos its only then I'll see you, its only then I'll be close to you.




LABELS: Give me back my fantasy.

我放不下.

Retail therapy. Don't ask me what I bought.
Listening to all the songs in my phone. I realise none of them are happy ones. Does that explain my emo-ness? Ha. I am not emo-ing lor. I'm just deep in thoughts. (:

I guess I'm just feeling tired. Lack of sleep = Crankiness. I shall shut myself out from the world everyday after 12am. Projs and assignments doesnt allow me to do that. Maybe I should find alternatives. Not only I'll create unwanted trouble for myself I'll also cause misery to others. Again, dont ask me why.

I miss you.
Lost. Please help me find my way; to your heart.

No more long entries for the time being. I need sleeeeeeep. I need energy.




LABELS: 我也说过同样的话 但总是放不下 还要为他付出多少代价

The promise; you made.

Terminal 3 trial today. Overslept and was late. Thank God we weren't the only ones. The new terminal was nice. Concept and structure totally different from the existing two. Walked around with the aching ankle of mine. I thought it was back to normal alr. It's still giving me those aching and dont-know-what feeling. Can't be bothered with it already.

Kboxed yesterday. Celebrated Michael's birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! (: Gary and didi joined us at 8 plus 9pm. Rather emo I would say. Lets not talk about it. As usual, all cabbed home from cine. ha.

Do you know how I felt at that very moment? I almost gave in to... I don't know the reason behind everything you do. I wish I can read your mind, and then, you can hide nothing from me. The literal "ups&downs" you brought to my life, the smile you never fail to put on my face whenever you're around, the happiness you made me feel from time to time and even those tears you brought upon, the pain you inflicted on me; my dear boy, I took and will be willing to take them all. You are that significant, you mean that much to me. I knew at that moment, I cannot let you go. I need you, I really do.

My friends are equally important to me. I hope there'll be mutual respect for one another. We can all joke around and play, but please know your limits. Boy, you were too much. It went to an extent where even I was upset with you. I know you were just playing a fool but you didnt know how others felt. As much as I tried to side you, I can't bring myself to. The last thing I wanna see is my friends cant accept the one I love. Please don't let it happen.

I know its wrong, but why does it feels so right?



LABELS: Every moment spent with you, is the moment I treasure.

Why do I feel so emotionally attached to you? Why am i feeling this way. I know I shouldnt but it just grew in me. Why is it that I'll be so affected when.. Okay, I shall stop this. I'm trying to detach myself from you. I will, I know I can.

For the first time, this is not for you.

Why does it feels so.. painful.





I'm screwed up. Feelings and emotions all over the place. How do I piece them together? Maybe I'm just tired and that added on to my " no mood-ness" Maybe its the weather, maybe its the atmosphere, maybe its the lack of sleep, maybe its the people, maybe its you.



I look at you, I speak of you, I think of you, all the time.

I'm feeling weak. very weak.
I can rightfully say that this period of time is the worst I've ever been through. Jaded. I'm really drained. Projects, school, family. I never knew all these will affect me. I never knew all these will be a burden to me. You know all I need is you.


I love my girlfriends, I really do. Without them, I wouldnt have survived. They pulled me through, they gave me strength, they held me tight so I wouldnt fall. What more can I ask for? I thank God for the friendships he gave me. I will cherish my girls. -Pris and Val, my darl, my sweetheart.

Left speechless. But I'm gonna be strong. I pulled thru once, I can do the same this time.

Mins! My dearest sis, please cheer up alright? Everything will be fine. Trust me. Though I dont spend as much time with you anymore, I'm still around. yeah? I'm just a phonecall away. Love you lots. You know I do and I always will.

Dont make me cry.

LABELS: I will survive.

爱上一个人,不管有多累,也很想看见他.

My day didnt start off well. Shall skip the details cos it aint nice at all. But its okay, its the past. The rest of the day sucks as well. Today's just a tired day. Its either me or the monday blues. I dont wanna judge.

Get well soon, love.




ai shang yi ge ren hui rang zi ji xiao shi




LABELS: Tomorrow will be a better day.

You'll always have a place; in my heart.

Its good. Everything's open now and we're thrashing things out openly. There's nothing to hide anymore and I can let my feelings show. Having to hide is the most tiring thing to do you all gotta admit. I count my blessings. I am fortunate enough and I wont ask for anything more. All I can say is I know i made the right choice and I will not regret. Even if things turn bad in future, I will have no regrets still. Because at least I've loved before. (:

Thanks love, thanks for the promise. There's many things I wanna tell you but I dont know where to start. But sometimes things dont have to be clearly spelt out for you to understand. You know my love, thats good enough. <3


Just came back from Alvin's finals at SBC. Mitchell and QiangSen were there too. Was getting all excited yet pissed by the referees who were obviously biased against bigger people. -_- TP's bball captain was sitting right behind us and making lotsa noise that actually amused us to the max. LOL. One funny guy la. Alvin played well and was really proud of him man. Was a good game. Gotta do econs proj article and InHT research now. So guess I'll just stop here. (:

On a lighter note, I think Mitchell has this x-factor that I dont see in anyone else. Dont get the wrong idea yeah. I know you guys are capable of that. =/


It was never a wrong move; that I fell in love with you.

Hold on to me tight, don't let me slip away.



I wasnt shaken, I swear I wasnt. But why does this feeling suc ks so much? As much as i tried to not think about us, someone just had to make me think again. It kinda refresh the whole situation in my mind and I'm forced to think abt it. Wanted to let things happen naturally and not being pressed. But now, why do I feel that I have to think about it? Thou the conclusion I drew was I love you. I just wanted to know, am I holding on to nothing. It is not about getting anything in return but about the "love" that I'm unwilling to let go.


Just came back from party world with sweetheart, darl, sis and co. I fell flat. And that sucked. Nothing much to blog already since my night was bad. Probably a few hours later I'll be fine. Many things going thru my mind now and I seriously doubt myself. I dont trust myself anymore. I hate being a Gemini.

period.



I miss you boy, I need you here.

I'm back, is that true?

I felt myself coming back. The Adel that I thought no longer exist. I felt it, but sweetheart confirmed it. I am happy, I really am. I used to always get compliments for being that Adel. Slowly as school started, that side of me went away with time. The confidence I had went right down to zero and on top of that I had to build walls around me to defend myself from any harm. That was really tiring and definitely not the real me. After that collaspe I was dull and moody 24/7. The laughters I don't hear as often and the smile I felt on my face didnt frequent as much as it does in the past. But now, I'm starting to believe that I can find that real me soon. Thanks to my new found daughter, or I'll never dare to confirm that fact. (: Oh, did I mention that I decided to call Pris my darling instead of dearest? Cos Val and her are like my little daughters, sweetheart and darling are wad mommy call their daughters aint it? haha. I just love being able to take care of them and show concern. Cos they appreciate it. (:

That was a little random. heh. Anyway, I was saying, thinking of the past, I really miss them. I am a person full of laughters and smiles. I promise to get them back as soon as I can. I'm getting on track alr and I will not allow myself to fall anymore. I swear to bring that confidence I had in me back. And I'll show people who didnt know me that real Adel they've never seen before. Trust me, you guys will prefer that me. (:

I'm not pinning my hopes too high, I'm not letting myself fall hard. Bringing myself too high up will only bring greater pain when fall hard onto the ground. That feeling I never wanna feel anymore. I have to learn to love myself before telling anyone that I love you. We have all the time we need and nothing's pushing us. Wait till i find myself back and love myself all over again. Only then, I will stand tall and proud being able to love you with all my heart. And only then, i will have the courage to put your name up here for everyone to see. Till that day, you will stay in my heart, always.

I smiled whilst asleep ystd night and I felt it. Somehow, I wish, that feeling would stay for a longer time. It is only in my dreams, that I can be closer to you. And I cherish every moment we had together in private. Even for a few mins, I treasure them. Even if most of those times were smses, they mean as much. (: Just one look into your eyes, I melt. I am weak when you're around. I didnt wish I'm stronger. I am happy just like that. You're that important to me. (:

I dont miss you even when you're not around. Cos all I have to do is look into my heart; thats where you are.






LABELS: Till the day I find myself, I will keep you in the deepest part of my heart.

Will you say that you love me.

What's new for every wednesday mornings? RHT lab. Doing everything online other den opening the SPSS program or listening to taxi driver uncle's tutorial. HUR. One glance across the lab, you can see everyone doing their own things. You get this privilege when you're sitting right behind the class. LOL. (:

RAIN RAIN RAIN. What a morning. Waether was fine till I receive a text from sweetheart saying that its raining at her side. Wanted to laugh at her but the next thing I know, BOOOOM. Heavy downpour. -_-

Met at Boon Keng. Was suppose to meet Dearest, Din and Sep at AMK macs. Too lazy to get up luh. but by the time I'm awake, I'm really hungry and had cravings for macs. Down to BK for macs and cabbed down for this do-nothing lab. (: Stomach's being a bitch now. As if I have a washing machine in my body spinning and spinning non-stop. GRRRRR.

Lets talk about YESTERDAY(:
Half the class were in sec school uniforms((: Had lotsa fun and laughed my heart out. S.C(girls) + Vivi= LAUGH OUT LOUD. Pinafore was really short and really wasnt comfy. Changed out of it after class. Slacked in the lib while waiting to meet the gigglers.

Gigglers (sides Nibbler) and some guy met up after class at Bizpark. Den off for soccer. As usual, the girls sat ard watching the guys play. But its not usual for Adel to be there on Tuesdays. Adel's there for 2 reasons. One, she didnt wanna disturb people. -grins Two, she wants to watch the boy play(: Second reason carries higher percentage. heh.

Gym after soccer. Miraculously joined them. I swear I wont be there the next time. My heart cannot take it man. Sucks like hell. Shall just give my moral support. (: Dinner after gym at the coffeeshop opp school.

Knocked-out the moment I reach home. Was really tired. Went online for awhile to do some research before I can really sleep peacefully. Talk about my weakness. I swear this is the first time I feel so weak. Weak as in, my weak point. Wanna get smth out of me? Say his name and that'll do the job. Easy? It came to a point where I just had to admit it. I'm fine with it thou.

Feeling so so tired now. Didnt wanna come lab but got dragged by Val.
DAMN, i'm thinking of my bed and blanket at home. ):

TODAY'S GIGGLERS DAY!! Nibbs coming TP for soccer game and we're all gonna have dinner tgt at TM. (: More and more gigglers. LOL. Watching them play soccer can be really entertaining. Most might see nothing interesting but Adel's enjoys herself. LOL. Tell me why.

Alright, I shall stop here. (:



Now my nights would end with just oen wish; that's you.




LABELS: I think about you all the time.

You're my strongest weakness.

'm really happy today. like, happy? haha. Dont ask me why cos I'm alr floating high up there and I refuse to come down. (: One word, happy.

Everytime I do something I like, the next thing I know is, shit, thats it. No surprise. I'm weak when it comes to this particular issue involving a particular someone. I admit, I give in to my heart most of the time. No regrets. (: Its really putting my perseverance to a test. Come what may. I'll be all ready for anything to happen. Be it another heartbreak or another made day, I'll be glad to take them all.

Nothing much bout today but tmr's gon be a UNIFORM DAY for 1H03. Oh man, I miss my IJ uniform. SO MUCH. One fellow IJ girl in my class(: I'll wear it with SJC pullover. LOL. Abit paiseh to be in uniform luh. People will really think we're from sec sch pls. HAHA.

VIVI! you're wearing!!!!!! PLS PLS PLS. TKGS uniform nice lor. ((:

Shit man, I just busted myself on Val's tag. Now my life's at stake. -_- I feel so threatened. HAHA. Dearest will be in CEDAR uni. Sweetheart and and I in our IJ uniforms! :D

I'm done. gay.


yourpresencemakeseverythinginmylifesospecial.


LABELS: Your ability to control my everything.

The one in my heart.


关于你的一切我都好好收藏着
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见

_____________________________


你出走我不问理由
等你再爱我
总有个角落会让你想起我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候
你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重
重是爱太多
当你回头看到的一定是我


I made a promise to myself last night, I'm gonna keep it if its wrong or right. Call me stupid, this is what I really want. And what I really love to do. Even if my love will not be reciprocated, I'm all willing. All willing to stay by your side. This is my love.


Period.




LABELS: You.

That's When I Love You

When you have to look away

When you dont have much to say

That's when i love u

I love u just that way

To hear u stumble when u speak

Or see you walk with two left feet

That's when i love you I love u endlessly

And when you're mad cuz you lost a game

Forget im waitin in the rain

Baby i love you I love you anyway

So here's my promise made tonite

You can count on me for life

Cuz thats when i love you

When nothin u do could change my mind

The more i learn

The more i love

The more my heart cant get enough

That's when i love you

When i love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide ur eyes

Cuz the movie it made u cry

That's when i love u i love u a lil more each time

And when u cant quite match ur clothes

Or when u laugh at ur own jokes

That's when i love u

I love u more than you'll know

And when u forget that we had a date

Or that look that u get when u show up late

Baby i love u I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonite

You can count on me for life

Cuz thats when i love u

When nothin u do can change my mind

The more i learn

the more i love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when i love u i love u no matter what

Thats when i love u

When nothin baby Nothin u do can change my mind

The more i learn The more i love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when i love u when i love u

No matter what

No matter what

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Just came home from a not-so-shopping-spree shopping. -_- Bought a stupid checkered top which I regret buying cos I realise I'll be broke for the rest of the week. ): Impulsiveness does no good. RAHH. But I like it luh. heh.

GAP GAP GAP, Dont let me step in anymore.

Anyway, Ajisen Ramen with sis and kev again. So nice ah. I dont like the food there. Oh, went school for VIBES competition yesterday. There for Didi and Frank. Frank's team won by the way. Didi's got hot ass alright. Somebod melted on the spot. HAHA. (: SOMEBODY LA. Dont ask so much. hahaha! Met Gary at TM for dinner. :D

Back to dearest's place after that. Was all ready to relax and sleep when I realised I have basic thoery lesson today. -_- Had to cab home luh. sian-ed.

That shld be all(:

Let me love you, is that okay?

LABELS: Love.

You know I will, I will forgive.

"Listen"

Listen,

To the song here in my heart

A melody I've start

But can't complete

Listen,

to the sound from deep within

It's only beginning

To find release

Oh,the time has come

for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own

all cause you won't

Listen....

Listen,

I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home, in my own home

And I tried and tried

To say whats on my mind

You should have known

Oh,Now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what, you made of me

I followed the voice

you gave to me

But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened.

There is someone here inside

Someone I'd thought had died

So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out,

for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside or worse

Into your own

All cause you won't

Listen...

I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't....If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...

To the song here in my heart

A melody I've start

But I will complete

Oh,Now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what, you made of me

I followed the voice, you think you gave to me

But now I gotta find, my own..my own...

____________________________________________________________


Speechless. But I'll be fine. Give me a night and I'll be good tmr.

It hurts, but so what. I swear the previous incident made me stronger.
I had him to thank.
The more feelings you put in, the harder it is for you to turn back. I gave my heart, tell me how to let it go. It really sucks having fun this second and things turn nasty the next. And when esp the words came out from the one you love, the impact and heartache doubled.

But guess what, pain was gone the moment a text came in. Am I useless or am i not. Tell me.
I can't feel anymore dumber. I dont even know who i am.





LABELS: All because I love you.

不属于我, 我不会难过. 我知道有一样的天空.

ARGH. Hate being sick. 1, cannot wake up on time for school. 2, mood badly affected. 3, having to pretend I'm ok. 4, thinking every single sec if I should see the doc. -_-. sian-ed. I need sufficient sleep. i know that, but how to not come online? hur. I need distractions so I wont feel that terrible.

I'm practically stoning already.

Stuck at this page for almost 2 hrs and this is so much I've typed. Not functioning already. Maybe sleeping helps. I shall go and sleep. goodnight.
I've been waiting.






LABELS: **** ****, i heart

Nothing but the truth, you speak.



I'm gonna believe this time and I seriously hope no more "truths" I'll get yeah? Its too much for me. You have to understand dear, its not easy to be in this position. Being told so many "truths" till you dont know which "truth" you'll get next. You can trust me with your little secrets and not being afraid it'll leak out. But when it comes to a point where you dont know if you're really being trusted, it sucks. I'm gonna take what you said as it is now and give no doubt. But I hope that as much as you're not sure of yourself and not ready to tell anyone, don't lie. Its kinda hurting in a way. I know you didnt mean to and I dont blame you. You have enough worries and I, as your friend, shldnt add on to them. I hope this is the final one I'm getting. Can you promise that? Dont give me your word if you think you cant keep them yeah? I dont mean anything here dear so dont read too much into it. (: Cos whatever it is, I'll still be around. It doesnt matter who the person is, what matters most to me is truth. And of course, our friendship. (:



Today's a happier day for me, though I'm really tired. Getting only 3 hrs of sleep and spending the whole day outside's really bad. The feeling of sleepiness sucks. I give ppl the sulked face and I define that as unpretty. So i'm gonna sleep early! LOL. I try. =x

Lectures and tutorials as usual. TIRED. Lecture was alright cos the guys were sitting in front of us. But mood went bad towards the end. tired. Dont have to talk abt tutorial cos i was totally shut off. LOL. Went to see the guys ( Gary, Joe, Michael, Din, Russell) play soccer. I just love watching the game la. hoho. Nibbler joined them later. Stayed till 7 plus and we ( sexys plus sep ) left for TM. Dearest had to change her top at G2.

Pizzahut after Gary, Din and Nibbler ( Chian Tat) joined us. Laughed really hard and I enjoyed myself. Almost got away with a wrong bill but they found out b4 we paid. HUR. Final bill was $107.34. We can really eat. HAHA. Had lotsa fun. (:

Back home. Talking online and I'm super entertained. Thanks to VIVI. LOL.
ADEL LOVES VIVI many many!


I know I shldnt. I know I shldnt be giving so much and being so nice. But what can I do when I just love doing all that? I love loving you. I know what I'm doing and I'm happy. So why should I care whether its right or wrong? Cos loving you alone makes me happy.



LABELS: No longer afraid, i mistook. (:

JOKE OF THE NIGHT.

Made me laugh like crazy.

Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
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Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
hope u dream of , and later!
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
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Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
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Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
HAHAHA!!
adeline tan. says:
OOI
adeline tan. says:
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stomach ache
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
hahahaha!
adeline tan. says:
ROLLING
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
BLOG NOW
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
HAHAHAA
adeline tan. says:
OK
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
LOL
Vivi Does Not Exist. (: says:
damn funny


TELL ME HOW TO NOT LAUGH.
TELL ME HOW CAN I SLEEP.

I LOVE BEING GAY.

I'm really gay man. EH, please dont think anyhow. Don't be dumb. LOL. Whichever GAY you think I'm talking about la ok. HAHA. Cos i'm really gay. Dont know why at this kinda time man. MUST BE VIVI's FAULT. tsk.

GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.
ilovegaysilovegaysilovegays.


Ok, not funny.

Apparently VIVI forgot all about smth and I'm so upset. I am really angry, can you tell? HAHA. I cant sleep la. haha. So there, random.


Happy. I'm happy. (:


LABELS: late-night talks. :D

每一个我都属于你

I'm being real cheena here. Don't any one of you laugh at me. I mean, I realise chinese words are more expressive. They give deeper meanings. You can replace those with English of course. Only chinese songs can really make people plunge into the emo mood. Trust me. Thou English ones can but they arent as effective. Not that emo-ing is good la. Aiyah, whatever. (:

Sweetheart PS-ed me early in the morning. She was tired, didnt wanna go for lecture. I was all ready to leave home alr la. LOL. End up taking my own sweet time to tie my hair. Plaited them up. Cabbed to school. Met Didi. Accompanied me to Cheers to get those panadols to save my life.

Went in LT just to see Gary sitting right in front. Middle section somemore. No choice, Didi and I went down. -_- Dearest came a little later. Late but earlier den usual. LOL! Gayboy was next. And up till now I still dont understand how can a person turn up for lecture without bringing notes and expecting an extra copy without informing anyone?!?!?!? Was really surprised and I really wonder what made them so sure that I have extra copy. -_- Shall not name them la huh. I'm nice(:

Rest of the day was fine. met sweetheart at Cheers while Gayboy and Dearest were eating at Bizpark.

Wanted to catch a movie but didnt favor any shows. = No movies.

I'm so tired that I fell asleep while surfing the net la. Shall save you the details thou Sweetheart knows. LOL. Alright. I'm done blogging.


A feeling that words can't describe.



LABELS: I'll let you see what I mean.

Listen to me.

Went HG mall with mum and sis and guess who I met? Such coincidence and SUAYness to see her please. HAHA. OK la, I'm happy, damn happy to see her. LOL. Met Val there with her parents. hoho. She was at Gelare. -_-

Wanted to get black covered heels. But I dun like the ones at URS and BATA. hur. Cont' searching den.

Nth much to blog about. SCHOOL tmr! yay. -_- haha!


Another nice song. Chen Mo Wan Ju-Caoge.


变成了一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情
模糊我自己
不愿深深把爱情
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决拥抱
我看到

为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意

说在而情意
寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
这种对你的深情
我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决了拥抱
我看到

为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意

为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意




LABELS: 爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢.

Tell me and I'll be there. I'll be there waiting.


Slept my day through and that really made up for those late night stay-ups. ha. Wake up and sleep, wake up again and then back to sleep again. LOL. Sorry to those whom I replied nonsense to. I was in a semi-conscious mode. haha. But now i'm wide awake ok! Not typing rubbish.

Bought a new wallet from Ripcurl and more things from Candy Empire. ((: ystd I mean. Listening to this whole list of emo songs and I didnt get affected. And yes, its a good sign. I learnt to be optimistic and most importantly, dont read too much into a partiucular event. That makes me a happier girl. hoho.

Going out for Ramen with sis and mum later. Tell me bout eating. I've been eating pls. Dont know where those cravings came from. goodness. This is no good la. No more food alright! School tmr and commskills questionaire due. -_-" say goodbye to us.

Yawns. I'm feeling tired again. HAHA. Just hope I wont be wide awake later in the night when everyone's fast asleep. That'll be when my emotions start to act. Pretty weak at that particular time. So its better to be alseep. haha.

Shall cont' later. Gon bathe now. (:

Gary, 我爱你.