Wednesday, May 30, 2007
For all my life, I'll be yours.
This feeling is mutual, why won't we admit it? This feeling is factual, why wont we acknowledge it? What is it that's holding us back? What is it that's awkward? I know the moment we start, we have lots to face. The feeling is mutual too- We're not sure. There were many times when i wanna hold you, knowing i can't let it show. There were many times I wanna embrace you so much, to know that i can't let you know. Why is this so? I don't know. I really don't. All i know is that there's something pulling me from behind. Telling me I cant, I just can't.
Stop all these nonsense. Take me out. Let's face it. Don't run away.
`Take my hands and I'll give them to you.
I fell in love, unknowingly, with you.
Haven been blogging for quite some time. Mum's unwell. She's in ICU now. had to go down to SGH everyday after lessons till 10 plus. Didnt have the mood nor the energy to come online, let alone blog. Yupp, in school's lab now having RHT (Research Hospitality and Tourism, if you dont knw) Lab. really dont know what's going on. HAHA. RHT really suck la.
had F&B make-up tutorial early in the morning with DANIEL CHIA. One word, AWESOME. He's really HOT. and most importantly, he's SINGLE. DAMN. LOL. Fooled around during class. stared at him thruout the tutorial pls. AND, (do not assume that the above sentence in large and bold are for him) Don't be dumb. HAHA. Was really sleepy then but kept my eyes wide open. I WANNA SIT FIRST ROW FOR EVERY F&B LECTURE!!! AHHHHHHHHHH.
Okay, back to morning, Was suppose to meet Val at BoonKeng and I WAS THERE. Waited stupidly till 8.22am and decided to ring her up. NO ANSWER. Called her house and blah blah blah. So the point is, I got Pris to pick me up at boonkeng cos cabs were nowhere in sight. Reached school and the fucking cabfare was $23.60. So CHEAP right? ARGHHH. Was really boiling inside la but nvm.
Did I mentioned that the girls in 1h03 ( my class, FYI) are in BLACK today? LOL. And two poor ignorant guys came in black too. They became part of us. HAHA. They are gayboy and Kelvin. Everyone would prolly freak out the moment they see the whole class in black. Super funny. Purposely paraded ourselves during break. LOL.
YAWNS. i'm tired la. But I'm looking forward to Bakerzin after school in the evening. TOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. :D And its GSS season people. (: To add on, its public holidays tmr. So i reckon town will be PACKED. thou i hope not.
Alright, i wanna spend time surfing the net alr. (: BYE.
LABELS: Grant my wish, please.
Friday, May 25, 2007
I'LL GIVE IT A SHOT.
Okay, obviously the previous post wasnt updated by me. LOL. That Vivi. I was damn pissed with blogger luh. But now, its fine. (: Thanks VIVI. You stone, I rock. Get it? :D
Alright, it was my birthday an hour ago. And I really enjoyed myself. This is the first time I celebrated my birthday after so long. I mean, I don't usually bother bout my birthdays. I always had this thinking, the more you expect, the more upset you'll get when you're disappointed. So I didnt dared to pin my hopes too high. Say I'm weird, but thats really how I felt before TODAY. (: 1H03 made my day and of course, SexyClique was awesome. I'll tell you why.
Morning, on my way to InHT tutorial.
Sarah called me when i was on the cab with sweetheart. We were already outside school. She told me lotsa nonsense bout Alvin and blah blah blah. I knew smth was wrong. I somehow felt it was the plot by Val and PK. But came to think of it, I dont think they'd do such stuff. LOL. I mean, why of all people, they get Sarah to call me? So that thought of mine perished. I was really blur and made lotsa assumptions till i couldnt catch wad Sarah was saying. But the next thing I know is, some weird but nice voice penetrated into my ear drums. Still, I wasnt thinking. It was some DJ on air luh! IT WAS PERFECT 10'S MUTTONS. WTH! Which means to say, I was SABO-ed on air. LOL. Thank God i used the right words. It was really sweet of Sarah to do that. I swear it was my first time on air and i thought i sounded different. The class spent 15 mins waiting for the recordings to be put on air. I was really malu-ed. Especially when the topic wasnt VERY NICE. Still, Sarah's really awesome. (: Thank You Girl, I LOVE YOUR BIRTHDAY GIFT AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE THE ONE I GAVE YOU. HAHA. We're quits okay! No more sabo-ing. LOL. And we got ourselves a motorola phone. I cant seem to remember the model despite asking Sarah a thousand times. Those earrings are really pretty. (:
InHT tutorial.
Ms Quah left class to get smth and the girls decided to go to the toilet, as usual. HA. The funny thing is, nobody realised I wasnt in class when Van came in with the cake happily singing birthday song. haha, that silly girl. Came back from the toilet, lights were off and I was wondering wad was going on. Then the cake came out. I totally didnt expect that luh. Thank you 1H03, esp. Kelvin, he got the cake for me and its really nice. I promise to put it up here once i get the pics from Sarah. (: The design's really nice. I've never in my life seen sucha design. Everyone was saying Kel's got a good taste. LOL. Had to rush to F&B tutorial so we postponed the cutting of cake. Did it during Mr Govin's lesson and he's really cool bout it. Thought we spent almost 1/2 and hr doing it.
F&B tutorial will not be that fantastic if Kelson didnt sit beside me and flood me with all his nonsense. Cos apparently, the sexy clique decided to piss me off by not involving me in their private conversations. But you know, I'm a no-nonsense person when it comes to lectures and tutorials. Maybe not ALL the time, but you'll find me shutting myself out of the world during lecs and tuts. So i thought maybe it wasnt their fault just that i was too sensitive. BUT, they had it all planned. How nice. I almost decided to go home and bury my head under my pillows crying my heart out. I didnt do it.
I went along with SexyClique to town. Met Peter and Amily at the bus-stop. Same destinations. In the end, they decided to join us. (: Had fun in the bus, thanks to Peter. LOL. Cos Pris decided to be anti-social and the father-daughter were busy watching prison break on the bus. Yes, I said on the bus. So gian la. LOL. So half the time it was Peter who entertained me. Amily was all plugged in so she couldnt hear what we saed.
And so, Peter and Amily decided to meet us later at Cine. headed down to The Cathay. For what? For Ben and Jerry's. SexyClique surprised me there. With a custom-made ice-cream cake which taste and look really good. Most importantly, it says "Sexyback". I love you guys man. They got me a ring. Its a clique ring with engravings. (:
Met up with Peter and Amily for k-box at Cine, cabbed down. whats new. LOL. Sang and Sang till we all got so tired. P and A left halfway for their movies. Walked all the way to fareast to meet Jeline and Cheryl. Fareast DAMN far luh. LOL. Ate at Ramen Ten. Slacked and talk cock till Kwai called to meet me outside the restaurant. (: She got me a cake and it's really pretty. It tastes good, a little "alchoholic". Thanks lot! (:
Cabbed, yes again, home after dinner when sis texted asking me to go back. SexyClique hopped in the cab and debated who'll alight first. So in the end, Pris was first, den was Val, followed by Me then the Gayboy-Alvin. Dont know how much was the cab fare, will find out from him tmr. Mum got me a limited edition handphone pouch and a hairband which cost too much for an assessory. I love them all. (:
Last but not least, ( i know the entry's really long la, bear with me, i'll be done soon.) I wanna thank everyone who made this day so special. I don't wanna name people in case i miss out some. It'll not be good if I do. THANK YOU GUYS once again. I'm really really happy and I appreciate the effort that you guys had put in.
Its pictures time. (: I will upload more.
Ben & Jerry's cake from SEXYs. (:
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Cake from mum. (:
see the red eggs in the background?
HAHA, shall only show you guys pictures of the cakes only until I've collated the rest of the pictures. (: There's still another cake from 1H03. Will get it from Sarah tmr. (:
Oh, before i forget, I'M 18!! I'm legal. (:
`My Sweet Eighteenth.
LABELS: Age and responsibility, I'll embrace both.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Firstly, I hereby swear never to call Viv "Vivi" again. She's a damn nice girl luh, don't want to be mean anymore (:
AND, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (:
KBoxed with sexyclique, Amily & Peter. xiia0`aDeL siingx damnn well nehhx.
-insert random emo line here-
Emo is the most passe in-thing, people. Must embrace it.
Labels: Viv is really nice
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Ok, RHT tutorial's damn boring. LOL. Com died out on me and val had to shift with me. HOHO, she's nice luh huh. Of course, she's my sweetheart. (: Sexy Clique's singing "Wo hai neng ai shui" LUH. And fancy communicating thru Val's tagboard. HAHA. VIVI joined us. That ah lian. Refer to Val's blog if you dont know why i call her ah lian. LOL.
Shall cont tonight. RUSH.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
It's you that I want, hear me?
Monday, May 21, 2007
Say my name.
So, blogger's fine alrdy huh. Didnt wanna blog cos number 1, no time. number 2, no mood. Good enough a reason to explain my dead blog? (:
School's been as interesting. Now that there's Michael and company to play with us. LOL. Maybe i shall name them. don't mind me, they just happen to be a grp of guys. And they are, Peter (1.9om, i'm serious!), Michael (the uncle(x ), Joe (not tall not short), Gary (tracker) and last but not least, ANDY ( Toh DIDI!!) <- he's cute luh okay. (:
Gave POM lec a miss today. Went for F&B lec at 3pm. was told that InHT tutorial was cancelled. Was damn happy. LOL. F&B lec was fun. REAL fun. HAHA. Daniel Chia knows la, he just kept quiet. Thank God. Hmm, end of lecture was funnier. Pris threw Michael's bottle right onto his face. He didnt get angry. One funny guy.
Slacked ard outside library waiting for Pris' netball to start. went to find FRANKIE at Design school. saw his artwork. DAMN nice. He's really one arty farty i tell you. (: eyecandy*
Alright, I have to study for tmr's InHT test. ):
GOODBYE.
LABELS: I don't know why am I feeling this way. I think I like you.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
All over the place.
So tell me who's not ill? Sugar's down with fever, Vivi as well. And me? I dont know what the hell is wrong with my stomach. It caught a cold, now its having a flu. HAHA. -__-"
Cant wait for tmr. So i can see sexyclique. :D and of course classmates, loverboy and SM- guess?
They're the reason why i go to school man.(: Cam-whoring sessions, surprises. (:
Sarah's birthday really made everyone happy man. So, i'm suppose to thank KOK KOK here. That dumbo. Now, i owe him lunch. -__-" If that makes you happy huh kok. (:
I'm dying of boredom. Mr S M's really being nice and sweet. Thanks lot! I appreciate all that.
GET WELL SOON VAL!! (:
Oh before i forget, I LOVE MY SON, REUBEN TO BITS LUH. That sweet little boy wished me a "Happy Mummy's Day" few secs ago. Thank you honey. Mummy loveeeesss(:
Labels: You know I'm fickle.
Friday, May 11, 2007
I LIKE YOU, BUT I LOVE HIM.
I swear this adds on to my not-wanting-to-blog feeling la. Blogger's being a bitch again and I am not happy. PFFFFFFFFFFFT. I'm elated today but the diarrhoea and vomitting dampen my mood. I dont feel sick thou. Just painful here and there. OH GOSH, I'm really good at sleeping luh huh. slept thruout tutorials today. Wasnt feeling good. PAINNNNNNNNNN.
FUCK. I hate this feeling. I hate having to choose. I hate being in dilemma, being in a difficult situation. I want all these to end. But it will not unless I make a choice. He's sweet but he's nice too. HOW? Go and die, Adel.
YAH YAH YAH ADEL, follow your heart. MAN, do you fucking think I have a right one to follow? Its always giving me crap, how can i trust the way i feel? Dont tell me to do it, teach me.
I ABHOR THE PAIN.
On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH(: I hope you're a happy girl today(:
Ok, back to myself.
BYE.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Blogger's screwed man. And that added on to my frustrastions. POUTS. I detest weekends I don't know why. MY OH MY, I used to LOVE weekends. Right now, weekends sucks. Woke up at 2 pm though. heh heh. Some phone call i refused to answer came in like 3 times? AND THAT WOKE ME UP. pissed. Wanted to sleep thru the day luh. I can't do that now. Thank God school's tmr. :D Call me psychotic, call me insane. I don't care, so long as I'm not at home, I'm happy. (: Okay, maybe a little happier.
Stared at lecture notes. BLANK. LOL. But i have to study it, there's InHT tutorial tmr. Printer decided to die out on me when I wanna print my F&B lec notes for tmr. HOW DUMB. DAMN, I needa study! Kelvin has to lend me his F&B notes tmr for disturbing my beauty sleep. HOHOHO.
EMO SONGS , EMO SONGS AND MORE EMO SONGS. HAHA.
VAL intro-ed alot. A whole damn lot. LOL.
I don't like emo-ing, FYI.
YAY! School's tmr. CHEERS.
LABELS: You won't wanna love me.
Friday, May 04, 2007
Sweet Sweet Love.
School was alright. Just that Alvin and PK didnt go APEL class with us. PK went to see the doctor, Alvin went for his basic theory test. So, there's only Val and I left. APEL was fun, though it felt kinda weird without those two monkeys. HAHA. Shall skip the school-ing part. Except for the fact that we love IT sch canteen. (:
Suppose to go down Outram Sec with Val to collect her Os cert. But her friend told her they cant. So we cabbed down to PS instead. Bought durian from Carrefour, walked ard. Bus-ed 14 down to Val's gramp's place. Slacked and talked. Disturbed Lewis too. LOL. Went Great World for dinner after that. Shopped a little. Before we even realised, it was alrdy 10. Decided to cab home, again. Fare added up to 20 bucks. Okay, don't comment. HAHA. bought hair accessories and FBT shorts today.
I'm very tired alrdy. If you guys wanna know more, go to Val's blog. (:
OH OH OH, sexyclique's gonna meet up to study tmr. :D ILOVETHEM!
LABELS: Tell me what's love.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
The deafening silence.
Cabbed to school again today. HAHA. Pro right? I dont mind taking a bus or train. Just that my ezlink not ready and I'm damn pissed with it luh. I need a concession.
Had make-up POM tut, F&B tut and Research Hospitality and Tourism (RHT) make up lecture today. Stayed in school from 8am plus in the morning till 8pm. My second home.
POM tut was rather dry. Almost fell asleep but manage to keep awake till break time. LOL. As usual i hate all the self introduction thing. Stoned my way through. Laid on the table for the whole tutorial. Not very nice i know, but my head just felt so heavy luh.
F&B tutorial ROCKS. I swear, Mr Govin's awesome. He managed to get our attention for 2 whole hrs which many lecturers and tutors don't succeed in. He's really humorous. A little paranoid maybe, or we were too suspicious? LOL. I LOVE HIM LA. I bet 1H03 love him too. He changed our opinion of F&B. We were fucking pissed with this subject when we had to rush our assignment. But thank god we had it done and he understood the quality of our work. I'm so gonna score well for F&B. He inspired me alot alot. :D And so, obviously he was right about us being the noisiest group in class. But we give quality answers pleeeeeease. That merely meant ACTIVE PARTICIPATION. LOL.
Clique slacked in the library after makan-ing. Joel came to join us after awhile. Oh btw, Joel's Alvin's gay partner. Don't under-estimate their gay-ing skills. Its extreme.
Towards the end of the day, everyone got so worn-out and tired. RHT lecture sucks. I switched off totally. Didnt bring the text to school today cos obviously everyone in sexyclique forgot all abt it, thinking today's lesson will end at 1. Happy for nothing. We shouldnt even stay for lec luh. waste time. Didnt felt good during RHT lec. Tried very very hard to hold back my tears but some escaped. Well, was all plugged-in during lec. Try to picture that scene in your mind : Lecturer ranting non-stop and i wasnt even paying attention. NO BOOK=NOTHING. Will be copying notes from sweetheart. tmr.
Waited for PK to finish her netball trial at the sports complex with Val and Alvin. Joel joined initially. But left halfway. Was eye-feasting with Val la please. HAHA. We concluded that cute guys are in sports. SO a visit to the sports complex once in a while's good. LOL.
HAHA, I must blog about this.
JOKE OF THE DAY : Val broke one of her heels early in the morning even b4 tutorial starts.
She kept playing with it and obviously it'll give way. LOL. That baby. PK offered her running shoes. Thank God PK had netball trial. Or else Val will be shoe-less. HAHA. Alvin help to fix the heels back and yupp, he could. But we thought it wasnt that safe for Val to wear. So, she remained in PK's shoes. She look a little funny, but its normal. HAHAHA. The moment she look unglam, all the cute guys started to appear one by one. LOL. She got so pek cek. DAMN FUNNY. Teased her alot.
That's all for today. Thank you so much for reading. (:
HAVE A GOOD NIGHT.
LABELS: I did all I could.
I deserve all the shits?
Okay, this is just gonna be a short entry, cos I'm tired. Just came back not long ago after meeting Reanne and company at Tamp mall. Sat and talked a little. I felt a sudden relief. I was back to normal after awhile with them. School's been really stress and the clique can't take it anymore. To make things worse, ADELINE TAN's being a bitch. Rather obvious right? 2nd week of school I swear was sucky. All the emo and moodless-ness, stoning and getting pissed. All these shouldnt be happening. I just hope things can be like week 1. DAMN, its all my fault. I'm sorry, clique. I'm not being stubborn, I just cannot decide. Things are getting bad, any fool can tell. Family's screwed, school's fucked up. What's good left? The existance of my friends perhaps. They're like gems to me luh, so precious. But can one imagine the pain of losing one of your most precious collection? Maybe it doesn't make sense to some of you, i dont wanna explain neither do I wanna let the whole world know how screwed up I am.
Things were really good at first, I dont know how it landed to such situation. Perhaps its me again. What's new anyway?
LABELS: I don't deserve to be loved, by anyone.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Your hands, I wanna hold.
School was kinda sucky today and I seriously DON'T LIKE IT. It didn't start off well. Due to some reasons the whole clique was emo-ing thruout first, Principle of Management (POM) lecture followed by InHT tutorial then there goes F&B lecture.
Let's talk about POM.
Sat beside Alvin and he was super tired, duper lethargic. Maybe becos of the conferencing last night with sexy clique. Okay, whatever it is, it kinda affected my mood alot. But i didnt bother, thinking it'll just go away. Got Alvin to help me write notes. I just wanted to lend him my book so that he wont be so lost during the lec luh. I'm not THAT lazy. But i guess I did more harm than good. Messed up his entire lecture notes, a little here and there. Took back my book to write the notes myself cos I thought he was really tired. But I screwed up his mood again I think. HUR, I'm doing the wrong things all the time. What's new? Its the first time I see him so... you know. Val and Pris didnt wanna disturb him either. So the whole clique plunge into emo-ness. And it started from here.
We had a little break before InHT tut. starts. Biz park-ed with clique. Then Alvin went to meet his friend for lunch. The girls went down to the bookshop and SDC building to collect money for APEL book and Val's ezlink card. Off to class.
InHT tutorial.
As usual the girls sat together and Alvin sat with Chuan ann. Played some game. Then we had to form groups for project. Ms Quah didnt let us choose our own grps. SAD, DAMN SAD i tell you. SexyClique cant do project tgt. Val's in one grp, Pris in another but thank god Alvin's in my group. I know he damn unhappy luh! But too bad! LOL. He's just stuck with the irritating me. And i swear i felt like slapping Timothy. He's irritating.
Break again. Biz park-ed again. The clique ate western. Oh, I met Xavier too. (: He's nice to come say hi luh. That's really sweet of him. Anyway, off to LT. Val got the LT wrong luh. I checked my timetable again and realised we were waiting dumbly outside LT23 when it was suppose to be at LT17. -______________-" That woman ah.
Today's F&B lec was the worse lec ever.
Had Kelvin on my left and Val on my right. Val, Pris and Alvin happily talk about their own stuff leaving me alone with Kelvin feeling all so fucked up and tired. Decided to sleep but got waken up by shocked-val. I swear i wasnt scandal-ing with THAT guy luh pls. Just that he did smth not very pleasant to mention openly. Perhaps we shldnt assume. Maybe its not that. But i can see that Val was dumb-founded and Pris was turned-off. Alvin couldnt be bothered anymore. HUR. It wasnt my choice to sit beside him and i didnt know what was going on. I just happily talked to Kelvin and HE IS MY CLASSMATE. who the hell on earth will think so much? Maybe he's just being nice. Okay, maybe not that but we shldnt alien-ate ppl like that. He's a nice person anyway. helped me with notes when i decided to knock out. Maybe he shldnt lean so close and got himself misunderstood. F&B lecture was disastrous i swear. Seeing ppl happily engaging in their own conversation and was left alone to get myself misunderstood. HOW NICE. But Val got so freaked out by what she saw that she channelled all her attention to my side and decided to occupy me with lotsa things. Gossips shld stop here.
Went Bugis as planned. Walked around Bugis Village looking for nice bags but none was to my liking. Clique was so tired and worned out. Decided to chill out at some cafe. Crapped till Val's cousin came. Went to eat Porridge-base Steamboat when all of us were bloated from the previous chilling-out. Still, all of us took our time to let all that was needed to be digested to digest and we start to eat again. Jokes jokes and more jokes. But I wasnt feeling that good though i laughed along. Dont ask me why. I myself don't know what the hell is wrong with myself. Sat ard for 2hrs plus. All plunged into emo-ness yet again. I really hate it when the clique does that. Almost couldnt take it when Reanne texted me asking me how's that thing going on. Oh my, that freaking made me teared a little. But i guess no one saw so its okay. Things got better and everyone's well. Walked over to Bugis Junction. Toilet-ed and arcade-ed. Played "basketball". It was Alvin against Pris and Denise ( val's cousin ) den next was Pris and I, Val and Denise. LOL. Funny I tell you. Alvin couldnt stop laughing at how the girls played. Was that really funny? HAHA. Maybe Val looked clumsy. Thats her trademark by the way. Exhausted. Val convinced me to train home. Wanted to take a cab back cos I really dread walking the distance from the interchange to my house. Alighted at Paya Lebar and in the end, decided to take cab. LOL.
Stood like an idiot waiting for cab with Val. Many lorries with some dumb workers honked at us and made some irritating noise for god-knows-what-reason. Okay, maybe its our fault for portraying a misleading image by wearing off-shoulders. Val and I thanked God we weren't in our minis. Finally a cab stopped. Dropped Val and here i am. Just done with bathing and conferencing with the girls.
Alright, I'm gonna jam now. (:
OH, Its my sis's 21st Birthday celebration at TaiKeng Villa tmr. (: Sexy clique's gonna be there and I hope everyone will be back to their usual self. especially Alvin. I dont want no more emo-ing and lets all be happy.
Its really a long entry. I gotta stop here.
LABELS: Let me inside, make me stay right beside you.