Little Miss La La, I think you can go and die.

That was rreeeeeeally random. LOL. can tell? See, i told you to keep away. (: Mum's scolding my maid for i-dont-know-what reason. And i think my mum's going bonkers. I'm serious. HAHA. By the looks of it, i meant. Hmmm, sentosa with Sheryl and Gwennie on thurs. Tmr's a sleeping day, Tues' a hospital day , wed's nothing to do day and fri's SJC day.

Can you tell that i'm going crazy too? ok, naybe its not obvious. Cos apparently i've been talking to myself lately and the next min after i'm done with it, i feel like a weirdo. HAHA. told you i'm gonna be mentally ill. So dont provoke me, I cant promise that i wont do anything stupid. And Sheryl says its pronounced as "stew-pid" not "stoo-pid" How dumb. I think she's crazy tooo. LOL. I cant wait till 6th March. i wanna be in the same class as them. but its either Gwen or Ryl. Cos gwen chose LRM ( Leisure and Resort Management ).

I can say goodbye to those Iloveyous and imissyous. Cos i dont and never wanna commit. (: Or should i say i cant? Loser i know, so shut up. PEOPLE, SAY NO TO RELATIONSHIPS. Everything has to end, its the matter of time. (:




`Dont say you're the one.

It just had to be me.

Ok, i'll try to sound less emo cos of BIG BIRD (yueying). She claims that I always had emo entries. But first amd foremost, i have to apologise to her for not calling her back when i told i would. Sorry bird. (: i know you dont mind, cos you love me too much to be angry. HAHA, and so we had a "sick" talk on the phone ystd when i was bored. She and her " Do you believe that my hands can stretch over and slap you?" So i replied, " Do you believe my hands can go snap your bra stripe?" But apparently bird wasnt wearing any. HAHAHA. I can reckon she'll tag me *&^*^(*&%&^$^)(^*&%& on my tag the moment she sees this. LOL.

Alright, jokes aside. Dad's gonna buy me a lappy! whoooooohoooooo. I offered to pay him by instalments but he declined. So i pretended to feel bad when i was already over the moon on the inside. I make a lousy daughter i know, but my dad still loves me most. LOL.


New Year's Eve
Went over to my gramps' place. Had dinner and collected tons of ang baos. Had eyes only for abalones, lobsters and sharks' fins. The rest can go and swim back to the ocean or roll back-for fishballs. Talked to aunts and my fav. uncle. So they had to comment about me choosing to go polytechnic. THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!! $&*)*$%(*)_(*_+%^*

Aye, i very lazy talk bout the rest of the "visiting" days. So i summarize them up into a word. That is "AWESOME" Mins Kwai and Kongrui came over. Played cards and yada yada.


Its freaking 0430 hrs now and i OUGHT to sleep.

I can't wait for school to start! But before that my posting result has to be good. bless me.

AND AND AND, i wanna go out with my bro soooooon!!!! KWAI KWAI AH! Dont be busy. LOL





Labels: You are the one I wanna love, and remember.

What i'd do if i could keep.

I found love, when i found you.
I saw love coming, when i saw you.
What am i suppose to do,
Do i let you know that i feel for you, too?
Your presence makes my life special.
I will wanna keep you, if i could.


And so, I went training at SJC today till 6.30pm. Suppose to end at 5.15pm. discuss discuss discuss bout camp camp camp. Went back with Mins and Kongrui came over to my place. That poor thing, got rash all over her. used all means to stop her from scratching. DUMBO! talked and talked. till 7.45pm, accompanied her and mum to Hg mall. Met up with Iris and I went off to shop ard with mum. Juliana met them after awhile. Shopped for rather long and decided to drop by to see their progress. poor people, must complete before CNY. :/

Came back and went out again with sis and mum to the market. Yes, i said market. Packed with people. Saw Jessica Yeo there. (:

And here i am, talking to Michelle. and as usual i cant really multi-task well. So, yada yada.


I love you.



Ok, i'm gonna concentrate on talking to Mins now. She cant wait to talk to me i know. (:


So, BYE BYE!




Labels: Should i stay? Or should i go?

Cos i want it all, or nothing at all.

Going off to SJC in another two hrs' time. Following sec threes to AMK police centre for their dry shoot. :/ I am very tired, very very tired. And there's training tmr. All for shooting comp, all for UOPA. Well well, so i gotta work hard. HMMM.

Alrights, just came home from SGH and AMk centre with mum and grandma. The NTUC, super crowded. 'm so not gonna go there anymore. But i'm always saying this. :(

I dont know what to blog alrdy. Byebye!



Labels: If only time stood still.

Bitch, i know, don't remind me.

And so i said a "Happy Valentines' Day" to you, thinking that it'll do you good. But somehow or another it makes you feel worse. I'd probably accidentally without knowing reminded you of our love. The love that was never meant to be. The mistake i've made and the wrong path i took. I'm sorry girl, i brought you all that. Nevertheless you still cared. The look you gave me when we were about to get our results. Deep inside i wished you did well i really did. Not just to satisfy my emotional needs but from the bottom of my heart. I wish you well i wish you happiness. I've been labelled since 6th Nov, as a bitch. But look, what happened to me? I had my fair share of misery. A misery that was only removed few weeks ago. That i managed to hate her. and fell for another. But this time round, It aint right. Everything was wrong, we shouldnt even start.

Maybe its just a selfish side of me wanting to be loved. So here am i, telling myself to move on. Dispose of the SJC culture or rather the girls' school culture and move on to a normal one. It might seem easy but no, it isnt. I'll wanna get over this shits in my life. I wanna lead a brand new one. There's nothing about my past that i can be proud of. So, I say, it was all a mistake. Forget bout all that. Memories will be forgotten if you dont remind yourself of it.

Thats all i wanna say for this very special day which is suppose to be a joyful one. I wish myself all the best and hope i can lead a life that is meaningful. I wish myself good luck for the upcoming JAE, DAE and JPSAE posting, appilcation results respectively.

Love, ruined me. So dont remind me of it again, cos i'll think of what was never meant to be.



Love all. HAPPY V'DAY once again.



Labels: Don't say you love me.

Happy Valentines' Day.

What happens if the one you like likes your bestfriend?
Will you give her up to your friend?
What if your friend likes someone else so deeply?
and will not accept the one you like,
Will you make your feelings known?
If love is the answer,
Can someone rephrase the question?
If fate can decide,
Will you wanna rule over FATE?

Breaking up friendships is the last thing i wanna do. Don't tell me anything, i know i'm being selfish, but i know the outcome. Things will change, I've been thru this. Just that this time round, i'm the opposite party. And so i realised how difficult it is to let things be the same. Thank you that someone for putting yourself in sucha difficult situation. You're doing the right thing by pushing me out of your life. And i never wanna step in anymore. Because i know, I'll fall all over again.

I'll accept new love, I'll try. Show me what you've got. Convince me that you'll be the hapiness in my life. If you dont think you can, don't even make presence known.


Thank you one and all, this is my Valentines' Day on 2007.



Labels: Light up my life, brighten up my days.

Today is a bad day.

Why? Cos i don't feel well. ): Think i'm running a fever. Didnt sleep well these few days. Ever since we got Os results, i've been really busy. Apply this and that. interview for this and that. But its all worth it. Hmmm, worht it or not we'll know when the postings are done. (:

Meeting the 3 co-ords later to tell them abt their timelet. Its not very well done but considering this is their first time, its still fine. So lazy to go out mans. I just want the fever to go away. RAHHH!

AND, tmr's Valentines' Day. I've got a date! With my sister, at HOME. haha! I'll be lying if i say i'm not sad. LOL. But if i find the right one, everyday's Valentines' Day. Am i right? stop consoling yourself, adel tan.

I can't wait to go TP mans. AHHHHHH...

TP, Here i come!!!



BYE all.



`If you think you're the one, let me know.

Tell me its right.

Hi world, changed skin. Waste my time only. Didnt wanna change, waste my time only. Alright, let me talk about Friday, Sat and today. (:

FRIDAY
Met Eunice Ngieng early in the morning outside SJC's bus stop. Went in to pay my school fees. I swear that PERSON was so rude luh! Done say done la! SO RUDE. Anyway, went RM's LJS for breakfast. Crapped alot with E. HAHA. Sat for awhile den decided to walk around. It was damn early luh pls. :/ Had so much time to spare. Went CP after awhile. Walk around till one. Bus-ed back to SJC. Marked attendance for NPDP. Was super pissed pls. GOODNESS. 2.30pm, went up to the GYM. Collect results. Did well, despite ALL that. Happy. Is 12 pts good? Yes yes, it is. Went up to Ms Ong's homeroom with Jacq and Rach to "collect" our cadets. HAHA. three if us in super good mood la. Talked to the bored-out-sec-ones for awhile. Then "collected" my Sec 3s. There for PATHETIC four of them only pls. But i think its better like that. I can teach them one by one without wasting time. (: Only KongRui, Iris, Juliana and Ellena came. Taught them Baton and Rifle drills. They're simple CLOWNS la. Laughed thruout the whole training. But of course, the training was productive. RIGHT? Home-ed after training. Met Mins and went over to Kwai'a place. THAT LAZY BUM. Bum-ed ard till 12 plus. Went Jln Kayu. homed.

SATURDAY
Went SJC to collect testimonial from Ms Teh. (: I LOVE HER SIMPLY. Cabbed down to Temasek Poly for application. I think all the taxi drivers should reflect mans. SERIOUSLY. Waited for SO SO long can. Stayed in TP for quite a while til bro came to pick us up. DAE, JPSAE... Was lazy to apply la. But play safe. (: Sent Mins home. THANKS MINS! CARTEL ok? ((: Home-ed and waited for Jac to call. Rach called first. Went down to meet rach and Jac was next. THAT TROUBLESOME KID. hahhaa! Came up to my place. Got serious for 5 mins den started to crap. HAHA, was suppose to discuss unit protocol and UG camp. HAHA. Discussed till the three co-ordinators came. Namely Iris(Chief), Juliana and Kong Rui. OH! before that, Rach broke a glass. HAHA. But it doesnt matter. yupp. As i was saying the three little kids came. HAHA. Decided to play a trick on them but it failed. -_-" Was i lousy or they're blur? LOL. Anyway, went down to meet them den up to my place. Discussed for A VERY LONG TIME and at the same time had fun la hor? Jac and the three little ones ate at my place. ordered KFC. disturbed jac alot. HAHA. Jac left at 8 plus. Three of them left at 9 plus. And so Rach and Jac thank me for being a BLOODY good host la! wads with the bloody. LOL. Enjoyed alot. (:

TODAY
Went Bugis with sis. Bought shoes, lip gloss and lip balm. Spent 60 bucks on these three pathetic things. Cabbed to and fro. HOHOHO. Went aunt's house for dinner. Came back and I'm here(:




I very lazy blog alrdy. Body aching all over. AND I WANNA SCOLD IRIS!! So late already still dont want sleep!! ok la, just kidding.

Goodnight all!




`May i know?

Hello all.
Gym-ed today. (: Pretty fun. We didnt go there to work out, we went there to be laughing-stocks. Haha. Tried everything there. Played and played. Oh well well, life's like that.

Results will be out on the 9th. This friday. Someone wish me luck pls. (: thank you.

No mood for bloggings.

Bye.



`find me another you.

I hate to admit, but those were the happiest days of my life.

Its already the past, why am i still holding on to it?
It should be erased from my mind, why does it still linger inside me?
I have to forget it, but why didnt i even try?
Time doesnt heal all wounds, it makes me miss you even more.
Still, in the end, i have to let it go.

ALRIGHT! I'm fine now. (:
Memories just had to haunt me. GO AWAY!
CRAP, i dont know how to put them into words.
TRAINING at SJC tmr.
That Jacqueline Foo better meet me for lunch or else she'll die.
HAHA! She always had to wait for me thou.
She's used to waiting for me alrdy i guess. HAHA!
Sorry my dear, i'll be early mans.

Going Hg Mall with mum soon.
Results day coming, Vday's coming, CNY's coming.
(: I know i will be happy. At least I'll try.

Takecare all.


`your name lingers in my head more then it should.