So many things happened overnight.
just because of a message, it almost had my life.

i'm not here to show my weaknesses.
i'm not here to tell people so much things in my life.
i dont have a fetish of blogging my emotions.
neither do i have a soft spot for letting people worry.

i wanna thank mins, for being there for me.
and kwai, for answering my phone call(:
i was helpless ystd.
i didnt know who to call.
i felt as if everything's crushing down on me.
i cannot afford to let her step out of my life.
Mins was there to comfort me.
and this is the first time ever since all of us drifted apart that i confided in my bro and sis.
this situation happened b4.
last christmas.
my nightmare before christmas.
i swore to not let it happen agn, yet i did.
i deserve all that.
i shouldnt be forgiven.
yet, she forgave me still.
telling me how much she love me and how hurt she was.

i dont wanna say anymore.
i just wanna tell my baby that i love her.
i always had and always will.
i could not fathom i would ever be with out your love.
i do not wanna risk anymore.
baby thank you.
and i love you; from the bottom of my heart.

LOVEmybaby`

HO HO HO.
MINs, QIAOs, CHERs, KWAI are at my place npw.
BIRDIE and BABY went back already.
RAHHHH. i miss her alrdy.

ANYWAYs,
all drank tequila shots today.
MINs , QIAOs and I got drunk.
AS USUAL, we fought.
HA HA HA.
so funny pls. NEXT was bird.
bird vomited when we were eating.
URGHHH. thanks bird. (((:

TWO more days to sch reopen.
SAD SAD SAD.
i still havnt enjoy my holidays yet))):
FINALLY the clique get together again.((:
Dale didnt wanna come.
LANNIES! WHY WHY WHY!!!
))): yah la, i know why.
NO WORRIES. (X
NEXT WEEK.

KWAI's talking now.
About her UNITED NATIONS class.
HOW funny.
kwai wanna change sports bra.
HAHAHAHAHA.
made her piggy back me.
HEAVY ME PLS. KNS!!!!

i wanna go on diet. BUT,
second thought,
I'M HOT ENOUGH.
hahahahhaaa.
YAYS! everyone agreeeeeeee!!!
cos everyone's breathing (((:

ALRIGHTs,
i'm tired already.
will con't later on.
cherly's making so much noise.
mins will say 50% of the atmosphere will be polluted by CHERLY.
she agrees (((X
CHERLY THINKS I'M HOT. and she's not. ((:

kks! see you later blog!
cherly says i'm blogging ((:
i know i am.

SEE YOU!

OLEH OLEH OLEH OLEH!!!
hahahhaha.

DID ANYONE OF YOU WATCHED THE ENGLAND'S MATCH??
BESIDES MINS??!!!!

hahahah.
IN FACT,
i think min's not watching the match pls.
she's watching people like BECKS blah blah blah.
AIYAH, all the cute players u see on the field!
she can message me and tell me how cute the guys were!
hahaha!
AND!,
did anyone of u caught the zoom in of BECKS!!!
at the end of the game!!
hahahhhaa!
OOOH, i shldnt.

Kk.
i just woke up la!!!
hahaha. i'll wake up i the evening everyday)))):
SAD. alwaes oversleep,
den cannot meet baby. RAHHH.
SO PIGGY ME.
SORRY BABY...
BOOOOO!

everyday of my life recently is HELL, i'd say.
SOME MAY KNOW, SOME MAY NOT.
forget it, i'm not saying it here.
RAHHHH. angry, frustrated, irritated.
whatever u can name..

alrights, gotta go now.
MSN MSN MSN!!
see you!

`adel's a happy kid! ((:

GOOD MORNING STARSHINE!
THE WORLD SAYS HELLO!!!!

OMG.
its 6.28 in the morning and i cant get to sleep.
watched Germany and Poland's match(((:
BUT.
i lost the bet; first time alright. ))):
won the Saudi Arabia VS Tunisia,
and Spain VS Ukraine's match.
SO. happily thought i'm a genius.
ADVISED mum to buy Germany 1-handicap-1
RAHHHH.
YES, Germany won, but i shldnt bet on just....
ALRIGHT!
i shall not continue ranting.
(not very nice)

EVERYONE's asleep.
and i've decided to update more often.
I promise, Earth, i promise alright?
SO, you can say,
that this blog has revived!!!!!
WHEEEETs.

HMMM,
had tuition YESTERDAY.
more like soccer betting session.
hahahhaha.
while having "tuition", i was chatting up with ppl
eg. peck, atiqa/cherly and some ppl i dont know.
hahahaha. NOW, i'm so bored pls.
just messaged mins.
did she fell asleep?
NO REPLIES.)))):

Baby's sleeping soundly i guess =_="
I'm tired too.
but i'm meeting baby later for lunch.
msging mins now;
probably jog with her later.
I NEEDA BURN THOSE FATS PLS!

OH, did i mentioned that i'm sucha happy girl now?
Not that i wasnt before. but.
hahaha. i am la.
LIKE, doing something which i thought was impossible.
wads impossible huh.
; talking to peck as though nothing had happened and,
as though we're really close?
OHMY, noone expected this.
NEITHER did I.
but it nevertheless happened.

ANYWAY,
i think i'm gonna maple now.
heh heh.((((X
I CANT SLEEP LA.

BEFORE I GO,
Guess who inspired me to start again?
ANOTHER UNEXPECTED,
they're (alot, pls be patient)
Sarah and Lydia Hoe, Gerald and Merelda, Sharene,
Zhao Lin.... hahaha. CRAP i know.
BUT after reading their blog,
i realise how one can blog about their life without
having to care bout others' view.
I ADMIT, i didnt wanna show my weakness.
that is why i avoided blogging.
because i know once i start blogging,
i will blog bout ANYTHING that happened in my life.
I didnt wann show the negative side of my life and play pretend.
DUMB?
till i realised blogging can help me in some ways which
i myself didnt expect AT ALL((((:
i was reluctant to admit that i'm weak.
i wanted everyone to just know how a princess i am.

but above all,
dont get the wrong idea that i'm leading a sad life((:
cos i AM happy now with everyone around me.
and i'm happy that i have her in my life; my baby.

i really should go now.
see, my rantings wouldnt stop.
POO! told you.

Till then,
take care everyone!
remember to tell me that you love me everyday!!((:

PS; many things to do.

`Dont be sad bout the so many things you lost,
because you've won my heart, baby.

HELLO PEOPLE!!
hahaha.
its been 5935932876-486-2 since i last blogged.

AGREE??
haha. too busy. cant blame me

i dont know wad to say la.
i cant sleep now.
thats why i decided to blog.

i've made many choices.
one of which really puts me in a spot.
I dont knw.
its just difficult.
they're my FRIENDS.
i know. BUT.
sigh.
Things hasnt been going well at that side.
i dont know what to do.
At one time they say they understand,
at another they actually dont.
we cant blame each other.
cos it aint anyone's fault.
we all have our own reasons.
I DO MISS YOU GUYS.
i really do.
BUT, what i mean by US is just the three of us.
the song's been playing over and over agn.
the memories has benn flashing over and over agn.
yet here i am, only able to sit here and do nth.
i cant do anything, or rather, i dont knw wad else i can do.

its really a difficult choice to make.
i cant have a cake and eat it at the same time.
likewise, i cant have both sides.
WHY, i dont understand.

till now, disappointment is the only word to describe.
you guys cant blame me for this.
neither do i blame anyone of you.
sigh.
i guess this what happens when things aint within our control.

i wish i could tell this to all of you;
come back to me. please.
come back to me. tell me that you guys understand.
tell me that you guys still love me.