I dont want another pretty face.
I dont want just anyone to hold.
I dont want my love to go to waste.
i want you and your beautiful soul.


OH MANs.
Os drawing near.
39 more days.
RAHH!
STRESS!!

ANYWAYs.
studied ALOT this few days.
studied with Anna and Mins today.
CP yoshi.
i really studied.=)
but my handwriting was..
HORRENDOUS?
sigh.
i know why.
wells.
what can i do?
nothing.

shall cont' mugging.


peace.


`tell me what to do when you mean so much to me.

BACK TO NORMAL

yepp!
everything's fine=))
i mean it!
but exams are drawing near mans.
sec 1 - 3's EOY exams.
RAHH!
study hard alright?
esp ppl in the A.S clique.

shall count down to O level mans!
41 more days.
i'm studying.
i really am.


`you're always on my mind.
iheartyou.

aDeLs.

`What am i to do to assure you?


You know i cant smile without you.
you know i cant live without you.
you know you mean alot to me.
you know you're my everything.

why must you say all that?
why must you doubt me?
why are you doubting me?
why are you doubting my love?

I'll never wanna live a day without you.
I wanna make things right.
I wanna hold you thru the night.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry i made you think that way.
but baby pls. dont ever sae that again.
never. it hurts alot.
i know its my fault.
i shldnt have joked abt it.
i'm sorry.
you know i'm so afraid to lose you.
you know when i sae iloveyou, i mean I-LOVE-YOU.
dont ever doubt these 3 words i saed to you.
doubt anything of me but my love for you.
i know i only have myself to blame.
i made you confused.
i made you not know whether to believe me.
but girl, after so many things we went thru.
i dont think i deserve that sentence from you.
how can you doubt me when i only have you in my heart all along?
how can you not trust me?
i dont think i did anything to make you feel that way.
i dont think there's anyone else in my heart except for you.
but when i love you wholeheartedly, you chose to doubt me.
it hurts alot. it really does.
stil, i wanna let you know.
i didnt regret staying on.
i will never regret loving you.

sigh.
i really dont know what to do anymore.
someone tell me.
wads wrong with me.

If you're asking do i love you this much.
baby i do.

i wanna have you by my side.
holding me tight thru those lonely nights


sigh.
its gonna be another sleepless night.


is everything gonna be the same?

`True love? I used to believe it existed, but when you've had your heart torn out and thrown on the floor, you just don't care anymore. . Ask me why I keep on loving


Random thoughts.
been thinking alot lately.
sigh.
i used to think i'm happy.
i used to think that i'll be happy with you by my side.
now, i know i cant live without you already.
now, i've fallen in deeper.
promise me you wont leave.
will you?

I dont want to have a day when all i can do is watch you leave.


`I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground. let me think about it again.



adels

May i ask.
`Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying,
is exactly the one making you cry?

OH. just thought that was quite true.
its nth related to my life.
cos i'm happy.
YAYs. HAPPY.

i'm too happy to blog.

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
it's been said that you only truly fall in love once,
but I don't believe it.
Every time I see you,
I fall in love all over again.=)


`i love you and you and only you.

adels

`Memories of our yesterday, all wrapped up in my today, how can I move on...when all I want to do is stay?

NO PAPER today.
hmmmm.
i sprained my darn ankle.
painful.
blame myself for being too playful.
but MINs and ANNA just had to start playing la!
hahaha.
nvm nvm.
they're coming over soon.
HURRY PLS!
i'm bored.
going to the sinseh.
SCARED!
RAHHH!
never mind.
i can endure.
hahhaa.

THANKs MINs, CHERLY and ANNA for being there for me yesterday.
love you guys lots!
thanks for telling me. thanks for holding me.

ALRIGHTs.
i shall stop here.
cont' later.

-iwantagirllikeyou. you'rethegirlforme


`If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I have, I did, I do, and I will

Almost here- Delta Goodrem (feat. Brian Mcfadden)

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you
I'm close to tears 'cause
I know I'm almost here
Only almost here

`i'll never wanna live a day without you by my side.

HELLO all.
at kwai's house now.
ate pasta for dinner.
-slurps-
I'M SO MOONCAKE-DEPRIVED.
hahahaha.
i want that DURIAN snow-skin moon cake='(
ANY KIND SOUL?
hahahaha.
ate mooncakes at kwai's hse too.
her mommy bought from CHINATOWN!
and thats where we're going tmr
YUM CHA pls!
hahahaha.
yays.

MATHs 2 and CHINESE 2 slashed my throat on the spot man.
KILLER!
sigh.
i dont know.
i'm tired.
EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS!
but eveytime i see or meet up with my clique.
I WILL FEEL HAPPY AGAIN.

OUR CLIQUE's POLICY:
STRESS-FREE zone.
ANTI-SOCIAL.
ONLY JOY.
ONLY LAUGHTER allowed.
NO TEARS.
BUT SADNESS ALLOWED.
ALWAES there for one another.
(we alwaes did)


sorry. thats quite lame.
but what to do.
i'm so bored.


ALRIGHTs.
THAtS about all?
YES.


`i'm missing you badly.
`i dont know who will i be without you.

adels

`i'm happy just to have you around.

EL and PHYSICs today.
Pretty fine.=)
STRESS!
GEOG AND CHINESE paper tmr.

YESTERDAY.
KWAI. MINs. ANNA. CHERLY. ATIQA
came over to my place.
HAD FUN ALRIGHTs!
wads with the clique getting so high.
ALL the CHIKOs!
all started with ANNA DONG!
i shant go into detail.
its gross.
and it'll ruin MY reputation.
MINE only.
cos ANNA dont have a reputation to be ruined.
anyone agree? pls breathe. =)
and next cheeko kia is MICHELLE LIM!
hahahaha. and her DAD kwai.
OH MAN.
hahahha.
i will never forget how mins and i bullied anna on the bed.
right! hold that thought of urs.
we're not gao-ing.
pls read my blog with innocent and "clean' mind.
hahahhaa.
alrights.
had fun la pls.


TODAY.
after paper went down to basement.
let anna and headed outta sch.
to meet qiaos and mins.
went COMPASS to meet weiwen.
sat at Mosburger.
crapped ard.
had someone to disturb my sleep.
someone i love so much.
anyway.
went toilet while anna went to buy food.
hahaha. and guess wad,
while i'm in the toilet that weiwen had to come.
she missed seeing me den.
too bad for her. haha!
lalalalala~
after awhile qiaos left.
MINs, ANNA and I went down to BK.
mins and anna did their work while i copied out the formulae for physics.
ANNA's a lamer i swear.
hahahaaha.

TOMORROW.
Anna and mins coming over again.
MUG MUG MUG!
PLAY NO MORE!
why do we alwaes end up playing huh.
hahahaha.
NO MORE RAPING OK!
NOMORE PULLING DOWN OF SHORTS
OR PULLING UP OF SKIRTS K!!
hahaha.
you know wad ppl?
i love my CLIQUE very much=)
YAYs.

alrights!
thats abt it.

`you're still my baby.
`YOU ARE STILL MY TARGET!
`hahaha!
`iloveyou.


adel=)

`dont let me go.
`cos i wont let you.

WELLs.
and update abt yesterday.
stayed over at mins the night before.
yupp. woke up at like 12pm?
hahaha.
den mins followed me home.
changed and all.
it was raining heavily and mins and i decided to play
hahaha.
so fun cann.
luckily didnt fall sick.
i'm a strong kid!
hahaha.
after that we went back to sch.
needa hand in my SS work to Ms Yeo.
yupp. well, smth really unpleasant happened.
can u imagine ur own sqmates didnt wanna believe you?
sigh. MINS! dont worry k? they'll know. they'll understand.

AFTER which met up with Cherly.
decided to indulge ourselves in junk food.
went over to Anna's place.
SEVEN ELEVEN!
had fun there pls.
i broke the bin's cover TWICE.
hahaha.
the person there was really nice to us cann.
hahaha.
even let us REFILL the slurpee.
Cherly and i bought this bottle.
long long and pink in colour.
PINK huh! CHERLY with PINK bottle.
hahaha.
oh yah, kinda pissed bro off.
hehe. oops.
she called us and we didnt answer.
cos we were busy with our stuff.
we were busy trying to cook all the food.
hehe.
and she return home angrily.
that was the first time she'd been so fierce to me.
I DONT LIKE IT!
hmmm.
she and anna came at the same time.
they walked pass each other without knowing that we're all meeting.
hahhaha.
okok. sat ard at the basketball court.
MOSQUITOES!!!!!!
arghhh.
they're so attracted to me la!
they're not FLIES i know.
i still cannot differentiate.=(
alright.
hahaha. asked Anna to be like the mosquitoes.
LMAO.

hmmm.
things arent going well for MINS, CHERLY and KWAI.
TO THE THREE OF YOU.
We'll alwaes stand by one another in times of sadness and in times of pain ok? i know things aint going well for the three of you but trust me, everything's gonna be alright k? you guys can pull thru.

MINS.lil sis// you can pull thru this okaye? i will alwaes be there for you just like how u were there for me yeah? i'll never forsake you. i know there and many times i failed to make you smile which i dont know why. i'll never give up yeah? i'll try over again and again. or else i willl ger Anna, Cherly or kwai to help me. =) its really the first time i see you break down. it hurts me alot. really. i felt for you. alomts cried with you la. alrights. i'm meeting you now! hahaha. see ya!

KWAI.bro// BRO! same old advice. follow your heart. only ur heart knows wad u wan. dont go against it. k? i'll alwaes here here for you. i promise.


CHERLY.lilnephew: lil one! dont get so upset ok? the clique loves. we'll alwaes be there for you no matter wad ok? u must stand tall you must be strong ok? after each cry you must tell yourself i'm not gonna let those tears fall anymore. k?


hmmm. yupp. as for myself.
i'm NOT letting go.
cos letting go hurts a whole lot more den holding on.

If i could make a wish,
i would start by making things right.
I would take away all your doubts
and hold you through the night.
For there's no one else i know
that means as much you see...
and i know someday you will learn to trust in me.

i'm afraid to lose you. promise me that you wont leave.


alrights. meeting kwai kwai and min min now.
they're already at CP and i'm at home.
how nice=)
yupp. the whole clique's meeting for dinner later.
THE ANTI-SOCIAL clique.
KWAI.
ADEL`TAN.
ANNA.
CHERLY
MICHELLE

you know what? i love this ppl alot. and i love her more.

adel.

`i dont wanna let go.
`i know i cant live without you in my life.
`thats not the only way out.

HEY ppl.
Went Old Folks' Home yesterday.
its ALL SAINTS HOME.
well. very fruitful.
i enjoyed myself.
i really feel for the elderly.
they were abandoned by their children.
and some really wish that they can have a home to go to.
they dont wanna stay there.
its really saddening.
almost cried.
got influenced by ACE.
there's this old lady who speaks so well, write so well and live her life so wel.
she's staying in A class ward.
she's really optimistic and she told us to be happy and smile.
never cry, never frown.
i know i know.
and i will. =)

after the home visit went to meet kwai and mins with Ms Yeo.
i'm suppose to persuade Ms Yeo to go for the BBQ.
The guides organised it for her.
Niece was like calling me non stop to ask whether Ms Yeo's going not.
OBVIOUSLY i said no.
hahhaa.
they were told that Ms Yeo was really busy and couldnt make it.
i need to know the venue!
so how? i decided to bluff niece.
say tell me the add and i try to get Ms Yeo there.
She was really happy la.
But in the end i msged her and told her i tried my best.
still, Ms Yeo really cannot make it.
she was disappointed ok.
BUT I NEVER ONCE LET ANYBODY DOWN.
convinced Ms Yeo.
she ask me to go with her.
yupp. sent her there.
the guides were really happy cann.
i like the feeling where i made so many ppl smile.
i want to make everybody smilel.
i wanna make you smile everyday.

sigh.
left immediately after sending Ms Yeo there.
abit extra la.
dowan stay.
so left with Mins and Kwai.
headed down to Harbour Front.
on my way there niece called me.
ask me where was i.
of course train la.
yupp.
asked me wanna go over or not.
i just saed see how.
yah.

got to harbour front.
PASTA MANIA was next.
hahaha. had fun la.
walked ard after eating to digest our food.
hahaha.
OH MY! KWAI MINS AND I so gonna get this bag frm ADIDAS.
55 bucks.
WE ARE GETTING IT.
its so nice.
anyway.
walked ard.
saw this necklace.
i loved it so much.
didnt wanna buy.
dowan spent my money.
not enough.
cos i needa get smth after that.
sigh.
thought i just give it a miss.
i really liked that.
it goes with my prom dress.
bro chose it.
we saw this small thing so cute la.
its meant to be hanged on our phones.
KWAI. MINs. ANNA, CHERLY. ATIQA AND I.
we got the same thing.=))
i love ths ppl.
went walking ard after that.
went into this sport shop wehn MINs asked me to accompany her to the toilet.
alright.
i believed her and went.
there's a meaning behind all that cann.
Bro wanted to get me that necklace,
asked mins to bring my to the toilet.
oh man.
i was really touched and i teared cann!
so sweet of her right.
i'm so lucky to have such Bro and Sis.
I'M so LUCKY!
=D that really made my day.

decided to drop by the BBQ place.
wanted to pass Anna smth.
hmms.
went home to take that stuff.
while bro and sis help me get the paper i needed to complete 512 hearts.
i need 16 more on that day.
very rushing.
cherly called can saed they needa go.
i panicked.
hurried the both of them.
completed the hearts.
Went down to the place.
gave her. =)
although she's so chor lor with the thing.
still cannot blame.
she dont know wads inside,
ANYWAY.
yupp. i gave her.


-There's so much things i wanna say. but words cant say wad love can do. All i wanna sae is. i love you and i really do.



`let me stay by your side.
`never let me go.
`you're all i want.


adel.