-speechless-
 
i dunno who to believe... i dont care already... hais...
 
doing NPCC routine order for Sat training... hais... dowan see ppl on NDP training... i hate them.. i dowan to see them... it hurts... hais... nvm, rememeber taht i saed i dun like him anymore?? but thats not the reason... how could she?? how could she do tt?? am disappointed... hais... nvm..
 
Thanks Kwai, thanks Marcus for talking to me... appreciated it alot... thank you...
 
ok, i thats all...
 
`heartbroken_______i feel bad.

Atomic Kitten - Cradle

I will rock you like a baby,
I will cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
shelter you from harm
There will never be another lover,
who treats you like I do
We can drift into forever,
on a love thats made for two
Don't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential,
baby I was only thinkin of you,
hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one,
agaisnt the world, baby
I am always dreamin of you,
hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your love
I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
cradled in my wings
I will take you up to heaven,
show you precious things
If you promise that you love me,
if you promise that you care
I will be here for you always,
and forever this I swear
Don't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential, baby
I was only thinkin of you,
hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one,
agaisnt the world, baby I
am always dreamin of you,
hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your love
Though you say you want a love,
but you dont think you believe it
Just open up your heart,
and you know you will receive it, oh baby
Baby Don't you ever say this loves not special
Don't you ever think it's not essential, baby
I was only thinkin of you,
hopin' you were thinkin of me
Two hearts beating just like one,
agaisnt the world, baby
I am always dreamin of you,
hopin' you are dreamin' of me
I could never live, one day without your love
I was only, I was only,
I was only thinkin' of you
I was only,
I was only,
I was only thinkin' of you
I was only,
I was only,
I was only thinkin' of you
I was only, I was only,
I was only thinkin', oh baby

~`This ain't a joke... i just realised that i had enough... enough... really enough... Go away... get lost... keep a distance from me.. i dowan to see you... i dowan to see you anymore... i noe i'm being evil and bad... but i just cannot love you like you do... u can sae wadever you want... you can sae that i still love the person i loved before.. wadever... i cant bring myself to loev you... i dunno how to... i noe you're good... but... i'm sorry...`~


hi ppl, at Temasek Poly now... with my sis.... hmmmz... just now got the competition thingy at business school... well, they did pretty well... at least i like the booth.. alot... i mean it... hmmmz... wells, think thats all abt TP ba...


ok... this para is for MeiDan... hey gurl... i noe i'm suppose to go cut hair with you right?? i din... i'm sorry... din mean to... i got geog test immediately after sch and i couldn't miss it... i noe i could have asked you to wait and after that we could have gone... but i chose TP over you... i'm sorry... hais... really... eh... sorry ya?? and all the attitude i've shown you and stuff... you've been patient and din take it to heart... i'm the bad one.. i'm sorry...

hey ppl, i'm going Perth.. hmmmz... it costs a bomb... $1578... wells, its alot... hmmmz... long since i updated... tmr's trng... i'm all alone... sobs... taking them for PT and Drill... ok....

think this not gonna be any long entry... hehe... ok... i'm suppose to be sad...

peace out.

hey ppl, i'm updating now.. *like finally* haha.. anw, din go sch todae..*again*... ok, this time not purposely one... had diarrhoea in the morning... hmmz... von message me... sae she passed her E maths.. hmmmz.. looking forward to mine...

okok, studies aside... I'm going to Perth with NPCC... Dad agreed... yay!!! *Cheers* hmmmz... but it depends on whether Yvonne is going or not... Mum asked whether she's going or not den agreed to let me go... okok...

erm.. thats all ba...

PS: Changing TKD club... *pondering*

hmmmz... well, i'm UPDATING now!!! so yvonne! keep quiet! haha.. tmr's a monday and its a HOLIDAE! studying for open book test.. well... cleared everything with Sandy le.. hmmmz... yupps, am happy to noe that everythings fine now...

thanks kwai, thanks sandy... for making my life happier... indeed, kwai has got losta patience.. thanks for lending me your ear.. hehe.. but that doesnt mean you can eat up all my M&Ms!! haha.. kaes...

well well, my lve life's in a mess... total mess... dunno how to clear the mess... nvm la, leave it... so tired of it already... some kind soul tell me how to handle it??? hmmmz... CADET and CADET INSPECTOR cannot go together de! its a world apart!!!

ok, let me introduce to you guys.. Sandy is the Queen. I'm the Princess and MEiDan is the slave.. okok..

thats all for today...

i began to hate the world...

i'm so tired... tired of EVERYTHING that's happening in my life... how i wish i could just drop dead...nobody would even care... i wish i could stop the clock now and stop the torture... ENOUGH! enough of everything... enough of betrayal, enough of insults, enough of NPCC!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU!

1. [what is your full name] aDe|iNe Tan

2. [nickname] adel, adelone[given by dan]

3. [bday] 24th May 1989

4. [age] 15

5. [sex] Female

6. [social security] -

7. [where were you born] Glen Eagles Hospital

8. [where you live now] Hougang Ave 5

9. [zodiac sign] Snake

10. [what grade are you in and what school do you attend] Sec 3, CHIJ St Joseph's Convent

11. [siblings and their ages] Sister and brother[18 and 17 respectively]

12. [do you get along] yes yes..

13. [pets] puppy coming back

14. [righty or lefty] right

15. [bedtime] 24/7

16. [hair color] Black/brown

17. [eye color] Black

18. [do you wear contacts or glasses] both [depends]

19. [do you have any piercings] yep

20. [tattoos] Nope

21. [scars] yes

22. [height] 163

23. [Do you wear any rings] not now

24. [What shoes do you wear] shoes that i like

25. [drove a car] nah..

26. [met someone new] haha..yes

27. [done laundry] Not in my whole life

28. [cried] Yup

29. [wore a skirt] most of the time

30. [how are you today] doing well...fine

31. [wearing] School Uniform

32. [thinking about] [you]

33. [what does your hair look like at the moment] neat

34. [what song are you listening to right now] Right here waiting

35. [what was the last thing you ate and/or drank] Macs/ coke

36. [how is the weather right now] Fine

37. [last person u talked to on the phone] [you]

38. [watching] Computer screen

39. [what time is it] 1513 hrs


***** DO YOU BELIEVE IN *****

40. [yourself] YES

41. [friends] Some

42. [best friends of the opposite sex] nah

43. [santa claus] Yes

44. [tooth fairy] yes yes

45. [angels] i got one beside me...

46. [ghosts] depends

47. [aliens] NO!

48. [God] i do...

***** MORE ABOUT YOU *****

50. [do you like the person who sent this to you] Took from yvonne's blog.. haha

51. [how do you eat an Oreo] open, lick off the cream and eat the rest
52. [if you were a crayon what color would you be] Red

53. [have you ever almost died] Yes

54. [what's the best advice ever given to you] Believe in yourself and you shall see the miracle

55. [have you ever won any special award] errr.. yes

56. [do you like to dance] nope

57. [worst sickness you've ever had] eh... dowan to mention

58. [what's the stupidest thing you have ever done] too many things to mention

59. [what's the next CD you are going to buy] Atomic Kittens

60. [what sport you hate the most] jogging

61. [place for a dream house] Australia

62. [how many kids do you want to have] 2?

63. [have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone] Yup

64. [who do you tell your dreams to] my best friend

65. [what are you most scared of] darkness

66. [how many tv's do you have in your house] 2

67. [do you have your own tv?] nopes

68. [do you have your own phone line] Yup

69. [do you sleep with a stuffed animal] yes

70. [are you shy] hehe.. wad do you think? yes... haha

71. [are you outgoing] yes definitely

72. [who is the loudest friend you have] My senior [SokCheng]

73. [who is the quietest friend you have] Theodora Hui

74. [who looks the worst in the morning] my brother

75. [who's the messiest eater] me, myself and i

76. [who's the slowest eater] Yvonne

77. [who's the bossiest] haha.. dunno

78. [who is the 'mom' outta your friends] Cheryl Lim [mummy]

79. [who are the top 3 hottest guys/girls u know] Therese? Chuan Xun [HIHS] no more ba..

80. [who's the weirdest] Kwai

81. [who is the funniest] me!

82. [who do you go to for advice] my best friend [von]

83. [who do you think about most when you're not happy] [you]

84. [who do you cry with] my squadmates

85. [what's the best feeling in the world] When i get good grades

86. [when's the last time you cried] POP night

87. [is cheerleading a sport] nope, it will never be

88. [how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop] dunno

89. [which came first the chicken or the egg] egg!

90. [root Beer or dr. pepper] Root Beer

91. [vanilla or chocolate] Chocolate

92. [love or lust] Love

93. [silver or gold] silver

94. [have you ever gone skinny dipping] Nope

95. [what's your favorite color] Red

96. [what's your favorite band/singer] dunno

97. [what do you dream about] getting good grades

98. [favorite song] dunno leh

99. [do you like to sing in the shower] haha.. sadly yes

100. [had an imaginary friend] nope, not as spastic as kwai.. haha

101. [wanted to "hook up" with a friend] No

102. [cried during a movie] yes

103. [had a crush on a teacher] No.. never!

104. [what is the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning] Brush teeth

***** PREFERENCE *****

105. [sleep on your back, stomach or side] stomach

106. [adidas, nike, or reeboks] Nike

107. [croutons or bacon bits] bacon bits

108. [2 doors or 4 on a car] 4

109. [bridges or tunnels] Bridge

110. [one pillow or two] two
111. [salt or butter flavored popcorn] Both!

112. [fizzy or still water] both

113. [Red wine or white wine] Red
***** Word Association - (1st Thing That Comes To Mind) *****

114. [Rubber Gloves] dentist

115. [Disney Character] Mickey Mouse

116. [Fast Food place] KFC

117. [Board Game] Snake and ladder

118. [Rock] Geography

119. [Blue] Yvonne.. haha

120. [Wet] diapers

121. [Cry] unhappy

122. [Peanut Butter] bread

123. [Hay] horse

124. [Paper] Trees

125. [Wood] Tree trunk

126. [Yellow] sun!

127. [Laugh] jokes

128. [Ugly] monster

129. [Happy] [you]


***** YOU AND LOVE *****

130. [do you believe in love] Yes

131. [do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend] Yes. boyfriend

132. [do you have a crush] yes

133. [who is your crush]eh.. dowan sae

134. [are you sending this to your crush] nope

135. [do you believe in love at first sight] No

136. [what song do you want played at your wedding] the traditional song played in churches..

137. [who do you want to spend the rest of your life with] My Parents, my sister my brother and my husband

138. [do you find yourself attractive] not at all...

139. [what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex] shoulders/build

140. [are you too shy to ask someone out] no

***** When was the last time you... *****


141. [Took a shower] This morning

142. [Watched Bambi] never watched

143. [Got a real letter] yesterday

144. [Wished upon a star] 15th June [at ubin]

145. [Asked someone for forgiveness] dunno

146. [Hugged someone and who?] nobody

147. [Kissed someone] ahem

148. [Ate something] jus now

149. [Called someone and who] yesterday night [ you]


***** What is your... *****


150. [Good luck charm] my brains

151. [Bedroom like] very neat

152. [Favorite Breakfast food]egg and ham

153. [Favorite lunch food] bee hoon!

154. [Best thing that happened to you today] Sheesh.. dunno

***** What do you think about the following *****

155. [Abortion] gross

156. [Homosexuality] alright

157. [Rap] yucks

158. [Classical] romantic/ soothing

159. [Oldies] eEeEeEeRrRr...

160. [Swing] nopes


***** PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT *****


161. [lights on/off] on!

162. [sun or rain or snow] snow

163. [mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (burger king)] macs

164. [do you like scary movies or happy movies better] happy

165. [backstreet boys or NSYNC] Neither

166. [on the phone or in person] in person

167. [summer or winter] Summer

168. [chocolate or white milk] choco

169. [CD or tape] CD

170. [hugs or kisses] Both

171. [cake or pie] cake

172. [cats or dogs] Dogs

173. [mud or jello wrestling] neither

174. [skiing or boarding] skiing!

175. [day or night] day

176. [sunset or sunrise] Sunrise

177. [diamond or pearls] DIAMONDS!!!!


***** YOUR FAVES *****


178. [candy]}[i change to choco]Ritter Sports or hersheys kisses

179. [beverage]chrysanthemum tea!

180. [cartoon characters] Mickey mouse

181. [sport(s)] swimming

182. [song] -

183. [favorite actor or actress] -

184. [favourite movie] Jersey Girl

185. [tv show] dun watch TV

186. [Favourite food] -

187. [ice cream] Swensens

188. [subject] Chinese, Geog

189. [shampoo] Dove

190. [favourite month] May

191. [favourite number] 33

192. [favourite person to talk to online] [you]


***** HAVE YOU EVER *****

193. [cut your hair yourself] no no... no
way
194. [been on stage] Yes

195. [ever thought an animated character was hot] no duh

196. [kept a secret from everyone] nope

197. [been hurt emotionally] definitely

198. [been in a car accident] No

199. [put a body part on fire for amusement] Nope

200. [drank] Yep

201. [smoked] not in my entire life

202. [broke the law] Chewing Gums considered??

203. [ran from the cops] no no...

204. [made yourself cry to get outta trouble] alwaes [apply only to my mom]

205. [tried to kill yourself] No

206. [made your self throw up] No

207. [ever been in love] Yes

208. [loved someone so much it made you cry] Yes... alwaes.. am tired already..