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i want to ask everybody.... why why why why why why.... why is it like that? all i want is everyone to be happy.. thats all... but here am i so miserable.. how to make ppl happy??

maybe i'll take the first step?? nah, i'm tired...

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-=-=-=-If i'd known this, i wouldn't want it to happen-=-=-=-=-

hey ppl, i'm back... exams are round the corner.... lalala.. i finish studying le.. haha.. Tuesday start... tuesday end.. cool huh.. haha.. long never update liao... will update more often den...

after examz the sec 3 np girls will face another nightmare man... haha... planning of camps and all.. well, here are all my holiday schedules..

15-16 May : 1 star kayaking
3,4,5 June : Combined UG camp
14-18 June : OBS (camp)

thats all 4 the time being...hope thats all ba.. lalala..
hey, i'm tired... dowan to update le.. hahaha...
good luck to all for the coming exams... haha..

-=-=-=- What i expected has come... Tell me what you're gonna do..-=---=-

ho ppl, going over to von's hse.. both of us never go skol.. we never planned it... i message her in the morning... den she say she also not going skol.. den ok lor.. but i'm gg to her hse of revision.. know why i use the word revision? cos i finish studying liao.. haha.. ok.. tmr will go collect wood with Mr PAng... for campfire... yesterday von and i chop the wood chop until can die.. den Ms Teh say we go take frm ying's mum's boss.. its F.O.C anw... okok.. shall end off here.. you guys wun s3e me online until after exams le.. u ppl study hard yar?

eunice08: hey.. feel quite bad.. sorry... (wun message u in class liao..) den wun affect ur studies.. ur amaths class that time alwaes talking to me one.. haiz.. sry... study hard yarhz?? <",>

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hey updating for glynis's sake.. honored?? haha.. ok, ain't in a very good mood actually.. so i got nth to say here... haiz... why must things alwaes turn out like that? wad wrong have i done? tell me la... i seriously hate it when ppl jest ignore me like this... have u ppl think of how i feel? have u actually spared a thot for me? wadever it is la.. i give up.. dowan to bother... i gave up so many things for you.. in the end? this is wad i get.. nvm. i'm alwaes the one getting hurt... why?! If u ever think that you're the unluckiest person on earth... hell, here's someone worst.

there something you really need to noe.... but i cant say...

oh hi ppl! *hides face* haha.. yah la yah la.. long time never update ler... hmmz, why? lazy ma... tmr got training... lalala.. NDP training all the way till 730 leh.. tired.. *cries* lalala.. nvm la, its ok...

today woke up at 9 by somebody.. u noe who u are! haha... den went PS with von... had lunch at pastamania... ok, i will not eat that particular pasta agn.. it sucks! hmmmz.. *pukes* nvm nvm.. after that met sis at 2... went Bugis with her... bought pressie for fren... broke liao lor.. den after that took cab home.. i'm tired.. i'm bored.. i'm angry.. i'm confused.. i dunno wad to do... haiz... hope i've made the right decision and wil not regret ba... anw, overall today very tiring and boring.. nth else..

think i shall end here.. or else everyone will be falling asleep.. *yawns*

PS: where are you when i needed you??

-=-=-=I love you yesterday, i love you still...i alwaes have and alwaes will-=-=-=-

hey ppl, had geog paper todae.. oh well well, its kinda easy but somehow i think i'll fail it.. hmmmz.. nvm... its over... actually meeting *him* today.. but i'm tired.. piggy me... so yah, sorry.. hee.. headache man... planned the UG camp like siao... everything was like in a mess i have to wait for them to finish discussing b4 i could actually move on... lalal.. *thinks hard* ms teh dowan our grp names.... wan us to change.. *haematite,galena,bauxite,cassiterite and malachite...* wads wrong???!!! haiz.. nvm.. ok, i gtg and print out the proposal liao.. maybe wun be ard for next few weeks... busy...

take care all!

p.s: iloveyou..

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hey ppl, went NDP training today.. it was damn damn funny i wld say.. shared all those jokes with me squadmates when i went to meet em.. hahah... most of em laughed.. haha.. its really funny... wells, thats ok, the thing i hated most is the bus journey.. damn long... sat in bus for like almose 1 1/2 hrs... so damn long...

physics and chem tmr.. *cross fingers* hope i can make it ba.. hee...

ok, i gtg ler, takkaire ppl!

---*when i say i love you, i mean it...*---

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haiz, dunno, just feel like crying everything out to this journal.. haiz.. i ain't happy at all.. why am i feeling this way?? confused... can someone tell me wads going on? things ain't fine for everyone....If i have to sacrifice, i would.. but why the things that i sacrificed doesnt seem to be wad it should be... tell me ur're happy.. i'll be happy... dowan to bluff myself over and over again.. i'm tired.. realli tired... sometimes when i feel like crying, i really wished that i had a shoulder to lean on... you weren't there.. some times i really got smth to say, you're not there... now i'm telling you how i'm feeling, just hope that u somehow care... haiz..

If this is the way life goes, i'll just sit there and let things fall on me... just let all unhappiness fall on me... dun fall on my loved ones.. for i love them so much that wadever happens to them, my heart will break.. i rather be the one who'll get all the unhappiness.. leave my frens alone...leave her alone....

If von's gonna ask me, how abt bryan?? sorry, i need time to think now... von, sometimes when i feel so low you're actually not there for me.. this really made my heartbreak worse.. i noe, u cant be here 24/7, but i really feel that .... haiz.. nvm la, i noe u're my one true fren, wadever things u do, i'll forgive and forget.. haiz... its ok.. we're frens right? we're great frens...i believe..